Dear Zoe,
I am so happy to see that you have recovered after 15 years of suffering with this awful disease. Being bedbound and in pain for years on end is an awful way to live and the suffering of many of us with M.E is very great indeed. I have a friend with M.E who is totally bedridden, who can no longer speak or type and lives totally alone. This person suffers in ways that I, a merely moderate to severe sufferer cannot even imagine.
Seeing the photographs of you out running and looking so well and happy makes me happy, because I dont' want anyone to suffer what I and my family are going through for one minute longer (my daughter is also sick and I had to care for her when she was almost entirely bedbound).
I spend a lot of my time thinking about and researching things that might help me, my daughter, my friend with very severe M.E, the community of good friends I have here at Phoenix Rising and the wider community of patients I have never and will never meet. I have spent a lot of money on tests and treatments - some have made me worse and caused new problems. I have been a patient of Dr Myhill for some years and also now am a patient of Dr De Meirleir in Belgium.
I am an intelligent woman - currently studying for a degree in Literature, but I do not have a scientific brain - I have worked very hard over the years to understand the science behind tests that I have had done - in fact it took me over two years to understand the ones I had done by Dr Myhill which showed many abnormalities.
I can understand that after 15 years of being ill you may not have had much of a career and little money - we are all in the situation and many of us are living on benefits or our parents etc. Many people have lost jobs, homes, relationships, their children, because of this illness. So any opportunity to make a new life after M.E and speak out about the experience for the benefit of others, whilst at the same time earning some money, and hopefully kick starting a career sounds like a great idea. It IS a great idea. But I have one small problem that stops me from buying the book - I get the impression from your website that there may be something in the book that could help me, my daughter, my friend with very severe M.E, my friends in the Phoenix Rising community, and the wider patient population to get better. IMAGINE THAT! all the people that could benefit so greatly and have their lives of non stop suffering and torment ended if only they knew what it was they could do to get better. But you appear reluctant to share this information with me and i'm not sure why.
I bought a book by Toni Bernhard about living with M.E AFTER I knew what it was about - because once I knew what was in it I had no doubt it would be of value to me. I bought another couple of books on overcoming M.E some years ago, one was about a woman's protocol, which she discussed on the cover, and then I wanted to find out even more and see exactly what she had done. If you were prepared to tell me what it was - the one simple thing - that got you better I would most likely buy your book to find out all the details and see how you got on as I am so happy that you have recovered and I would like me and my daughter and my friend and all my friends here at PR to get better as well.
Perhaps I am missing something here, and you could explain it to me so that I can understand WHY you cant share the information with me before I buy the book. This is a genuine question. I know you have worked so hard for the past four years writing it, but I would still happily, or perhaps more happily buy your book if I knew what it contained.
Kind Regards,
Justine.
P.S - The book is a bit expensive - I understand you need to cover costs, but what a shame there isn't a cheaper Kindle version that I can quickly download and read.