Woolie, I just noticed your tag line...and that is how I feel all the time...but I do hope you stick around as I've always appreciated your posts and presence.
Thanks,
@Starsister. It was so sad reading your post here. What you're describing does sound a lot like depression to me. So many say they don't feel sad, they just don't feel much at all.
We're social animals, we're supposed to have company. What could be more normal than feeling depressed when we're deprived of that?
With the stories of your friends, you're pointing out why you don't want to be on antidepressants yourself, because they themselves blunt the emotions. Have I got that right? You make a strong case against them, I must say.
It sounds promising that you feel you might be coming out of it. You're a psychotherapist, so know much more about it than me. But I suspect you can talk about these things all you like, change doesn't really happen until your life improves. But if this is actually starting to happen, then little by little, things might turn around?
Re the leaving part: I'm hoping that the current PR Board will address our concerns here soon. If they do, I'll stay. But I'm dismayed at how there is still nothing happening. The signature line is my way of saying 'please hurry, I won't wait forever'.