My stakes in this at presnt, are not as high as for some here. but, i paid the price of this horrible illness, for many years, even though i survived and for the most part got a lot of my life back. thats not to say. my body isnt still affected, and my mind partly destroyed. but im doing good at the moment. none the less. the impact emotionally is so powerful. when i found out a cause for all that suffering ( possibly xmrv ) i burst into tears. tears of relief. tears of knowledge. tears of vindication. and on and on. Then it seems. we cant have that.
We must be the unkown mentaly ill patients, who are just imagining it all, are just making it up. or are mentally disrurbed to a point where, we make our selves illl. Its so unfair for everyone. its just not right. this was supposed to be our justice. ( the truth was out justice) the wpi. gave us hope, and our pride back. the world once again is taking it away again.
Thats ok i guess if the world is right. but what if they are wrong ? what if, it really is this virus. that has ravaged out bodys and minds. we must keep pushing for the truth, untill we know 100% it either is, or is not, this virus. And if its not, the real cause must be found.
I hope you know something i do not Daffodil. I so admire your courage. all your courage against this horrible disease. its funny you saying we musnt panic D. a memory shot through, with those words. the hardest part for me. was i hated the illness so much, it scared me so much. it felt so horrible for so long. all i ever did was panic. that panic just suffocates the soul. drowning in fear, and illness. you all know exactly what im saying. hope your right D