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svetoslav80
I am so sorry you had such a bad crash to your music. To be so tied to music and not able to listen must be some level of hell.
Background sounds were already too much even in my first few years into M.E. I still can't do Walmart, etc., or much of anywhere at all and car radios must be off.
I still have massive sensory overload but give up music? Forever? No way. I still relapse over most everything, but I am learning to meditate with the music.
I couldn't listen to music for almost a decade. Anyway, with the kids and their friends I had all I could do being so ME debilitated and a parent.
Thanks to the dozen, more or less, of kids who spent their afternoons at my house I would drive them to the store and give them the grocery and snack money. They did the shopping. I napped in the car.
Often, I'd wake up with breathing sounds over me. It wasn't the cats, the dog, the rabbits, the rat or the hamster. It was always one of the gang of kids quietly waiting for me to wake up because he or she needed to talk.
Long after the kids were gone and after several years of in and out of consciousness, I gradually started to listen on my laptop in bed. I started out really quietly, no headphones, no more than a whisper, at first. Very gradually, over a couple of years I could, on occasion, ramp it up. Now there's not too much limit. Only volume and taste and I have adapted to fairly quiet. Truth be, the speakers on my laptop do not do great volume. That helps.
I hope really, really gradual eventually works for you, too. iz