I was diagnosed last summer with cfs but I've had fatigue issues since 2016.
Ive been in a constant crash now for months. No let up. I posted here a few months ago regarding the huge anxiety setback I've had and since that I've been in another long cfs crash after a great few months last summer. This was my post https://forums.phoenixrising.me/index.php?threads/constant-crash-anyone.57083/#post-993929
Ive developed severe depression in the last 8 months. I'm a mum to 3 children, they're 16, 14 and almost 13. My hubby does all the cooking and cleaning because in this last 8 months I've been too unwell to do any of it. I feel so much guilt every day. I feel the worst wife and mother. I wake daily in tears it's another day of resting. Some days I feel so much guilt it triggers a panic attack. Just typing this triggers panic. It's all so traumatic. I was doing so well then last winter anxiety and panic hit and for 8 months I've been so crashed. I have to rest all day and I'm worried that's causing more damage being less active.
I feel so alone and afraid it's not normal to be this crashed constantly. I'm just constantly feeling heavy and weak. I am forcing myself up hourly off my bed to do. 2 minutes waking and even that feels too much but I try to hit 1000 steps a day or i worry. Even showers every 3 days is too much. Everything has become hard and I suffer awful overwhelm and guilt every day.
Ive a wonderful husband and three children, they understand so much but I spend every day just crying because I feel I'm letting them all down and putting pressure on them. I have thoughts every day I'm a terrible mum, I even look so far ahead worrying I won't ever make their weddings etc I haven't been outside in months, I've developed such bad anxiety and depression it's horrible.
Can anyone offer any advice on how to cope with this guilt and beating myself up? I'm worried sick I'm going to ruin my children's childhood
Thank you.
J
Ive been in a constant crash now for months. No let up. I posted here a few months ago regarding the huge anxiety setback I've had and since that I've been in another long cfs crash after a great few months last summer. This was my post https://forums.phoenixrising.me/index.php?threads/constant-crash-anyone.57083/#post-993929
Ive developed severe depression in the last 8 months. I'm a mum to 3 children, they're 16, 14 and almost 13. My hubby does all the cooking and cleaning because in this last 8 months I've been too unwell to do any of it. I feel so much guilt every day. I feel the worst wife and mother. I wake daily in tears it's another day of resting. Some days I feel so much guilt it triggers a panic attack. Just typing this triggers panic. It's all so traumatic. I was doing so well then last winter anxiety and panic hit and for 8 months I've been so crashed. I have to rest all day and I'm worried that's causing more damage being less active.
I feel so alone and afraid it's not normal to be this crashed constantly. I'm just constantly feeling heavy and weak. I am forcing myself up hourly off my bed to do. 2 minutes waking and even that feels too much but I try to hit 1000 steps a day or i worry. Even showers every 3 days is too much. Everything has become hard and I suffer awful overwhelm and guilt every day.
Ive a wonderful husband and three children, they understand so much but I spend every day just crying because I feel I'm letting them all down and putting pressure on them. I have thoughts every day I'm a terrible mum, I even look so far ahead worrying I won't ever make their weddings etc I haven't been outside in months, I've developed such bad anxiety and depression it's horrible.
Can anyone offer any advice on how to cope with this guilt and beating myself up? I'm worried sick I'm going to ruin my children's childhood
Thank you.
J