Do you ever feel so held back from life that you get into a totally crazy mood where you just want to do something totally out there?
I was seriously considering dying my hair olive green! Not the whole thing, just some parts of it. But that's how stir crazy I get. I swear, I may yet do it.
I'm just so tired of not living. All the nots in my life. Can't go to parties, can't travel, can't go to a concert, can't go to the movies, can't go to a club. Everything is can't, except for an occasional dinner out. So BORING, so tame.
I can't even relate to normal people anymore. Even the women in the magazines I used to love, I'm just no longer a part of that world. Getting hair and nails done at an actual salon, having a job in a normal place, having a boyfriend, dating, going out to clubs and movies and fun places. Going to the gym. All the stuff I used to be able to do. Most of the time, I don't even realize how much life I'm missing until it is shoved at me.
I don't even have a smartphone. Why? Because there's no one left to call. I don't have a circle of friends anymore.
I just want to do normal things again. I want to go out and LIVE. This is not living. This is an invisible prison with see through walls.
And I feel so held back from life that I just want to go totally crazy and do outrageous things and wear outrageous stuff, and I wish I had the money to just get on a plane or take a cruise and just go somewhere fun. I just want to live.
I was seriously considering dying my hair olive green! Not the whole thing, just some parts of it. But that's how stir crazy I get. I swear, I may yet do it.
I'm just so tired of not living. All the nots in my life. Can't go to parties, can't travel, can't go to a concert, can't go to the movies, can't go to a club. Everything is can't, except for an occasional dinner out. So BORING, so tame.
I can't even relate to normal people anymore. Even the women in the magazines I used to love, I'm just no longer a part of that world. Getting hair and nails done at an actual salon, having a job in a normal place, having a boyfriend, dating, going out to clubs and movies and fun places. Going to the gym. All the stuff I used to be able to do. Most of the time, I don't even realize how much life I'm missing until it is shoved at me.
I don't even have a smartphone. Why? Because there's no one left to call. I don't have a circle of friends anymore.
I just want to do normal things again. I want to go out and LIVE. This is not living. This is an invisible prison with see through walls.
And I feel so held back from life that I just want to go totally crazy and do outrageous things and wear outrageous stuff, and I wish I had the money to just get on a plane or take a cruise and just go somewhere fun. I just want to live.