I was wondering if anyone could give me a bit of advice on how to cope with my huge overwhelm about Christmas Day.
I suffer from anxiety, but this year has been a particularly difficult year with my panic and anxiety and it has contributed towards the CFS getting a bit more advanced. I spend most of my time upstairs in my bedroom or in my kids rooms seeing them on my better fatigue days. I don't really sit down stairs currently due to how fatigued I am.
I've been having really bad anxiety about Christmas for weeks now. Obviously I'm not going to be able to sit downstairs and watch them open their presents around the tree or sit at the table for Christmas Dinner. My children all teenagers and my husband said we are all more than happy to open our presents upstairs in our bedroom and we can even have dinner together upstairs if need be. I don't really have a huge appetite currently so the thought of a huge dinner in the early afternoon kind of frightens me incase I feel too nauseous or anxious to sit together and have a big meal. Ridiclious hey. Worried I'm sounding a right freak here.
More than anything I'm just frightened that I'm going to let my children down at Christmas because it's not our normal tradition. We normally sit by the tree all day and have a meal at the dining table together and this will be the first year that we've not done that so I'm really struggling with this guilt and I'm keep crying worrying about Christmas Day. It's actually made my anxiety and fatigue a lot worse the last few weeks to the point where I'm nearly having panic attacks again which had got better. I'm putting myself under immense pressure because it's been hard on my children anyway having their mum poorly with CFS this year, I'm just terrified I'm going to ruin the best day of the year for them. I want to give them as normal a day as possible but I can't. I'm scared I'm going to spoil it for them
I'm frightened that I won't be able to sit with them for dinner if it's a bit much for me because when I get anxious I get really nauseous and I don't normally hace a meal that large till the evening so I'm just frightened that it's all going overwhelm me and I'm not going to be able to sit with them for dinner and they're going to have to sit downstairs with just the dad. Even the thought of doing that to them keeps making me cry and feel anxious. I just hate cfs it's destroyed my life and the guilt I feel everyday is bad, I'm so overwhelmed about Christmas Day it's making me feel awful.
If anyone can offer me some words of comfort and reassure me I'd really appreciate it. My husband and children are amazing and they've been so supportive this year but I'm just so fighting I'm going to upset them on Christmas day if I need to rest or leave it all gets a bit much for me. I'm crying just typing this so if there are any mistakes I apologise, I'm just so upset right now I'm very tired.
Jem
I suffer from anxiety, but this year has been a particularly difficult year with my panic and anxiety and it has contributed towards the CFS getting a bit more advanced. I spend most of my time upstairs in my bedroom or in my kids rooms seeing them on my better fatigue days. I don't really sit down stairs currently due to how fatigued I am.
I've been having really bad anxiety about Christmas for weeks now. Obviously I'm not going to be able to sit downstairs and watch them open their presents around the tree or sit at the table for Christmas Dinner. My children all teenagers and my husband said we are all more than happy to open our presents upstairs in our bedroom and we can even have dinner together upstairs if need be. I don't really have a huge appetite currently so the thought of a huge dinner in the early afternoon kind of frightens me incase I feel too nauseous or anxious to sit together and have a big meal. Ridiclious hey. Worried I'm sounding a right freak here.
More than anything I'm just frightened that I'm going to let my children down at Christmas because it's not our normal tradition. We normally sit by the tree all day and have a meal at the dining table together and this will be the first year that we've not done that so I'm really struggling with this guilt and I'm keep crying worrying about Christmas Day. It's actually made my anxiety and fatigue a lot worse the last few weeks to the point where I'm nearly having panic attacks again which had got better. I'm putting myself under immense pressure because it's been hard on my children anyway having their mum poorly with CFS this year, I'm just terrified I'm going to ruin the best day of the year for them. I want to give them as normal a day as possible but I can't. I'm scared I'm going to spoil it for them
I'm frightened that I won't be able to sit with them for dinner if it's a bit much for me because when I get anxious I get really nauseous and I don't normally hace a meal that large till the evening so I'm just frightened that it's all going overwhelm me and I'm not going to be able to sit with them for dinner and they're going to have to sit downstairs with just the dad. Even the thought of doing that to them keeps making me cry and feel anxious. I just hate cfs it's destroyed my life and the guilt I feel everyday is bad, I'm so overwhelmed about Christmas Day it's making me feel awful.
If anyone can offer me some words of comfort and reassure me I'd really appreciate it. My husband and children are amazing and they've been so supportive this year but I'm just so fighting I'm going to upset them on Christmas day if I need to rest or leave it all gets a bit much for me. I'm crying just typing this so if there are any mistakes I apologise, I'm just so upset right now I'm very tired.
Jem