Mimicry
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I have noticed that my brain fog is different than before. When it was bad I used to have trouble with... Everything from spatial awareness to communication. But for the last couple months I've managed to cook and do chores almost every day yet speaking aloud, processing speech and controlling my facial expressions in social situations seem very draining and strenuous. I can write and read fine most days when my eye symptoms aren't too bad and I'm chatting with friends online all the time, but it's the IRL social situations that are causing trouble. This is especially annoying because I'm an extrovert and usually I get very much joy from social situations. Now they just leave me exhausted and confused and a bit ashamed because I feel like I can't "play human" properly 😅
I've been processing some severe childhood trauma stuff and am wondering if there's something emanating from my childhood causing me to have this weird symptom. I have a dissociative disorder (OSDD1) and I guess it could explain some of it. I've also been wondering for years if I might be autistic, and if the trauma processing is causing me to unwillingly unmask so much that I legit forget how to control my face and process speech. Another theory of mine is that because I've had covid + two bouts of cold/flu during the last two months, the inflammation in my brain has somehow moved into the area in my frontal lobe that controls speech. I also had a middle ear infection in my left ear, could it have somehow affected the left frontal lobe?
Any insights and similar experiences are welcome! Thanks in advance ❤️
I've been processing some severe childhood trauma stuff and am wondering if there's something emanating from my childhood causing me to have this weird symptom. I have a dissociative disorder (OSDD1) and I guess it could explain some of it. I've also been wondering for years if I might be autistic, and if the trauma processing is causing me to unwillingly unmask so much that I legit forget how to control my face and process speech. Another theory of mine is that because I've had covid + two bouts of cold/flu during the last two months, the inflammation in my brain has somehow moved into the area in my frontal lobe that controls speech. I also had a middle ear infection in my left ear, could it have somehow affected the left frontal lobe?
Any insights and similar experiences are welcome! Thanks in advance ❤️