#1015 ME before course moderate, became severe after course. Symptoms were very much worse after. Course not appropriate to needs.
“I had two courses of CBT, one with a psychologist and one with an RN therapist. CBT was great for helping with lowering stress, anxiety, negative thinking patterns, etc. Would probably be great for anyone to engage in (healthy or ill).
BUT was not effective at all for treating ME.
It was irrelevant for that, except perhaps in that slightly lowered stress was less draining.
At the time, my doctors were convinced that my symptoms must stem from depression, and had convinced me as well. Consequently, I was fully committed to the programme and very motivated to follow their suggestions.
There was no need to discuss false "illness beliefs" because I did not have any. I believed my issues were purely psychological, and treated them as such. I was advised to try to ignore the messages of fatigue that my body was sending me, and to be as active as possible anyway – take walks, see friends, etc.
In retrospect, this was a terrible mistake for me, since it led me to push on in ways that caused a progressive and dramatic decline in my physical functioning. When I got so bad that I was bed bound, I finally received an accurate diagnosis, which explained FAR more of my symptoms than depression ever had.
If I had been only very mildly ill, I could see the lowered stress being helpful, since stress often seems to put extra strain on the body and make symptoms worse, but if I was that mild I don't know how I would have noticed that anything was wrong in the first place.
My level of functioning going into the CBT was not ideal. I had just left work. But at that time I could still drive myself, be independent, care for my own basic needs, etc.
After treatments, I was bed bound and unable to care for myself, feed myself, bathe myself, etc. I got so bad that I had difficulty holding my own head up even temporarily. And false beliefs of illness did not factor into it at all, except in that I had falsely believed the illness to be psychological. I should not have, and wish that I knew then what I know now.
During this time, I was also prescribed some antidepressants, which also had a negative rather than positive effect.”