Sandman00747
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Hello all, I am a longtime watcher of this and several other boards but rarely post although I love to read and gather info and opinions. I have recently had something most incredible happen to me which I know should interest everyone. In the end I don't know if it was truly a good experience to have or not.
Let me start by saying I have suffered from this plague for 20 years. It came upon me as an encephalitis in the '90's. I went through 2-3 years of the initial hell most all of us have been through. But I kept working through it other than I was initially off work for 2 weeks when I first caught it. I have always worked with this though many, many times I have thought about going the disability route as my mind and body are a shadow of their former self. But the worst thing for me about this disease is that it has simply sucked the lifeforce out of me. I know most people here can relate to that statement.
About three weeks ago I had a miraculous event come upon me. I was sitting at my computer just as I am right here, right now, when all of a sudden this warm feeling came over me. It was the most wonderful, incredible feeling that I haven't felt in oh so many years. It started in my head where I could first feel the fog totally lift away, and then the cranial and neck pressure slowly but completely melted away. Then, my numerous joint paints instantly subsided along with the 20 year spinal cord ache. Then, my vision began overwhelming me as details greatly sharpened and colors now exploded before my eyes. My sinuses, throat, and chest all but instantly cleared of all congestion. It was easily the greatest feeling I have ever had in my life. It was a miracle! No, this was not an 80, 90, or 95 % remission. This was 100% full tilt back to my old self and it was truly orgasmic! I felt cured!
For the next 3 1/2 days I was cured! People instantly noticed the real me was back. And, no, I was not a fool. I didn't go jogging or play full court basketball or skydiving or anything crazy. No, I didn't go out and eat chili dogs and banana splits. I guarded the new me like a soldier! It was electrifying to feel like this again. Life was good again!
Then, 3 1/2 days later while going to bed I noticed a touch of "that dreaded feeling" right before I fell asleep. The next morning I awoke to feel the real me had left once again and the last 20 year feeling was back as strong as ever. I cannot tell you the depression this brought upon me. I keep a journal as I'm sure many of you do. I have been over that journal looking for clues or anything to help me find out why this incident ever happened to me. I can find nothing. There is no hint, no pattern, nothing. And let me tell you that tasting complete health for those days was just so overwhelming.
What is this thing? What did my body do that beat it away totally for that short length of time? Can my body do it again? Should this give us all some degree of hope? I just don't know anymore. All I know is that was the best feeling in the world for the short time I recaptured it! This disease is bizarre. Maybe I should have had that chili dog! Take care all and have hope. Has anyone else ever experienced this short term 100% remission? Anyone? Buehler?
Let me start by saying I have suffered from this plague for 20 years. It came upon me as an encephalitis in the '90's. I went through 2-3 years of the initial hell most all of us have been through. But I kept working through it other than I was initially off work for 2 weeks when I first caught it. I have always worked with this though many, many times I have thought about going the disability route as my mind and body are a shadow of their former self. But the worst thing for me about this disease is that it has simply sucked the lifeforce out of me. I know most people here can relate to that statement.
About three weeks ago I had a miraculous event come upon me. I was sitting at my computer just as I am right here, right now, when all of a sudden this warm feeling came over me. It was the most wonderful, incredible feeling that I haven't felt in oh so many years. It started in my head where I could first feel the fog totally lift away, and then the cranial and neck pressure slowly but completely melted away. Then, my numerous joint paints instantly subsided along with the 20 year spinal cord ache. Then, my vision began overwhelming me as details greatly sharpened and colors now exploded before my eyes. My sinuses, throat, and chest all but instantly cleared of all congestion. It was easily the greatest feeling I have ever had in my life. It was a miracle! No, this was not an 80, 90, or 95 % remission. This was 100% full tilt back to my old self and it was truly orgasmic! I felt cured!
For the next 3 1/2 days I was cured! People instantly noticed the real me was back. And, no, I was not a fool. I didn't go jogging or play full court basketball or skydiving or anything crazy. No, I didn't go out and eat chili dogs and banana splits. I guarded the new me like a soldier! It was electrifying to feel like this again. Life was good again!
Then, 3 1/2 days later while going to bed I noticed a touch of "that dreaded feeling" right before I fell asleep. The next morning I awoke to feel the real me had left once again and the last 20 year feeling was back as strong as ever. I cannot tell you the depression this brought upon me. I keep a journal as I'm sure many of you do. I have been over that journal looking for clues or anything to help me find out why this incident ever happened to me. I can find nothing. There is no hint, no pattern, nothing. And let me tell you that tasting complete health for those days was just so overwhelming.
What is this thing? What did my body do that beat it away totally for that short length of time? Can my body do it again? Should this give us all some degree of hope? I just don't know anymore. All I know is that was the best feeling in the world for the short time I recaptured it! This disease is bizarre. Maybe I should have had that chili dog! Take care all and have hope. Has anyone else ever experienced this short term 100% remission? Anyone? Buehler?
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