You are so gifted with words....you know how to grab hold of the deepest feelings. I am trying to "come " out also and am going to read this to my therapist. With this coming out I have noticed a huge amount of angst, a kind of anger that is not anger if that makes sense. It is kind of fight to be part of the game. The therapist suggested I am having "feelings" again instead of just being a "non person"
If anyone stands in my path I seem to be like a mountain lion. I have never before known myself to speak my mind like I am doing, firming saying what I like and what I dont like. I guess I used to want to be "liked". I think my forced isolation where very few of my family and friends really cared, and know I could have died and still no one cared. So why would I need anyones approval? This is a a very freeing experience....dont care if I am liked ...I am just being me....a NEW me.....one who likes their own company now. My garden is is my best friend.
Great new article, Jody! Very gripping and with a truly stirring metaphor. When I scrolled back up the page, the light from the lantern seemed to jump out and grab me--as your article did.
Keep that fire stoked and burning!