Blackbird,
The first time in many ways is the toughest. But hopefully you will find that using different means of conserving energy, maybe conserving funds, can be okay.
Sometimes, they may even be an improvement. Depends I guess, on how ragged you used to run yourself at this time of year.
I miss alot of the old stuff as I said in the article. But another side of me is quite relieved. And really doesn't want to go through all the flurry again.
There is something to be said for simplicity and aiming for peace, balance and ... homeostasis.
Just try to remember that, you are not alone in this. Many other chronics are sharing that space with you, in trying to rest and pace through the holidays, missing their old selves and their old lives.
Perhaps that will help you to feel less of a sense of loss. I hope so, anyway.
