Good analogy...that constant circling and waiting, forever, when you can see your destination in sight. I've noticed before that you have such a
great way with words...and I love your sense of humor.
SO sorry to hear about your troubles. I can certainly relate to that level of frustration.
I'm almost afraid to say how much better I am for fear that this is just a temporary remission or that I'll jinx myself and the universe will feel the need to show me how wrong I am, BUT....
After starting Famvir (March 2013) and being on it for several months (at a high dose), I noticed improvement mainly in my cognition, brain fog and migraines. Had some improvement in physical function but that was variable. I definitely had times when I was significantly better but then had a major crash (July 2013) after I had a load of activity around my son's wedding. That crash lasted over a year. But, without the Famvir, I doubt I could have gotten out of bed to do any of the stuff I was able to do for his wedding.
Last July (2014), I restarted the Famvir, changed from Naprosyn to Celebrex and started taking Texas Super Foods. ( I knew my diet was horrible because I didn't have the energy to shop or cook so figured some basic supplementation might help.) I also added in a low dose of Ritalin in Sept. That felt like it helped with my brain fog enough so I could sort out my 23&Me results and research more of the mitochondrial/MTHFR connection. (Ever since I became ill in 2009 I have felt like there was a mitochondrial issue at the base of a lot of my symptoms.)
I started playing with various supplements last fall as I was doing a little better and continued to improve. I stopped the supplements in order to wean off my topomax for my migraines and definitely got worse- not with migraines but other symptoms. Restarted supplements and resumed improvement. Of course, there were still good days and bad days but the overall trend was upward. In the meantime I was also able to decrease my nadolol (for my POTS) to half the dose I was taking and decrease some of my MCAS meds.
Started Valcyte and cholcicine in Dec. and had another major crash in Jan after painting my son's bathroom. Came out of that quicker than usual and then caught a cold which set me back but not as bad as usual.
For the past 4-6 weeks, I have been slowly increasing my exercise. Started with really short, slow walks. Have now added in a short bike ride once a week (where I live is all hills so not much flat area to ride on), and am doing some yoga daily (just for this past week). I used to teach yoga and have missed it tremendously so just being able to do 20-30 minutes without ending up back in bed for a week has been amazing!!
I still have some not so good days, but even these are so much better than where I was. At least I can now cook dinner about 4 nights a week and get to the grocery store once or twice a week. I am even dreaming of getting back to work at some point. I have a daughter graduating in May and another son getting married in June so if I can get thru that without crashing, I think it will be super good news.
Interesting that the Mirtazapine was helping your POTS, although I'm not surprised. I have been on Wellbutrin for years and when my POTS doc had me stop it, my POTS went crazy. He will not suggest that one again.
Really hope things calm down for you soon and you can try some of these things again. Also keeping my fingers crossed that I don't shoot myself in the foot by pushing to do things too quickly. But, it's so hard when you have a little energy again not to want to run do all the things you've been wanting to do for the past 5 years.
