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This is a bad moment and I don't know why
My legs are always sore, my brain fog is stronger than ever, my breath is short and my memory is plain broken. But there's something new. I would usually struggle to do things I like, even if just for a little, from simplest things like having a phone convo, listening to music or watching a documentary to more complex ones like studying, playing the piano, drawing to even more physical ones when I'd feel better like fixing things, cooking, doing chores. I often didn't have enough energy to do them for long but I wanted to do them.
Suddenly I lost all interest in my hobbies and interests. The idea of listening to music or watching a documentary or doing chores just doesn't appeal to me and I feel like I can find any pleasure in anything. On the other hand I'm so achy and sore I can't leave the bedroom for long but I don't even feel like sleeping. I woke up at 4 am and couldn't sleep since then. Today I will be dead sleepy by 9 pm and will sleep till 4 am and the cycle will begin again but I don't know what to with my time.
The only thing I find pleasurable is having a conversation with my friend. I have a friend who is extremely not demanding or oppressive. I mean while certain guests feels like a burden because they always ask you questions, they expect you to talk all the time or offer them things or don't feel very autonomous at other people houses, this friend is very in tune with my health issue in fact she is not a tedious presence. She talks only when I feel like it but stops when she sees I can't go on and just sits there, starting to talk about something interesting again only when she sees I have recovered and even when she sits there saying nothing I feel less lonely. Sometimes I feel like napping and instead of taking offence or feeling let alone she just sits there on the edge of the bed, doing something at the pc or listening to my cds and her presence is so conforting even if I don't talk or nap.
Maybe I'm getting dependent on this comforting feeling but the only thing I really feel like doing is spending time with her, talking or listening to music. But of course she has other commitments and can't be here all the time.
Anyway, do you ever feel like you're losing interest in everything, even those things you consider strong passions and usually make you want to be healthier to be able to do them? Does this happen expecially when you feel physically worse than usual and what do you do all day when you're in such condition?
My legs are always sore, my brain fog is stronger than ever, my breath is short and my memory is plain broken. But there's something new. I would usually struggle to do things I like, even if just for a little, from simplest things like having a phone convo, listening to music or watching a documentary to more complex ones like studying, playing the piano, drawing to even more physical ones when I'd feel better like fixing things, cooking, doing chores. I often didn't have enough energy to do them for long but I wanted to do them.
Suddenly I lost all interest in my hobbies and interests. The idea of listening to music or watching a documentary or doing chores just doesn't appeal to me and I feel like I can find any pleasure in anything. On the other hand I'm so achy and sore I can't leave the bedroom for long but I don't even feel like sleeping. I woke up at 4 am and couldn't sleep since then. Today I will be dead sleepy by 9 pm and will sleep till 4 am and the cycle will begin again but I don't know what to with my time.
The only thing I find pleasurable is having a conversation with my friend. I have a friend who is extremely not demanding or oppressive. I mean while certain guests feels like a burden because they always ask you questions, they expect you to talk all the time or offer them things or don't feel very autonomous at other people houses, this friend is very in tune with my health issue in fact she is not a tedious presence. She talks only when I feel like it but stops when she sees I can't go on and just sits there, starting to talk about something interesting again only when she sees I have recovered and even when she sits there saying nothing I feel less lonely. Sometimes I feel like napping and instead of taking offence or feeling let alone she just sits there on the edge of the bed, doing something at the pc or listening to my cds and her presence is so conforting even if I don't talk or nap.
Maybe I'm getting dependent on this comforting feeling but the only thing I really feel like doing is spending time with her, talking or listening to music. But of course she has other commitments and can't be here all the time.
Anyway, do you ever feel like you're losing interest in everything, even those things you consider strong passions and usually make you want to be healthier to be able to do them? Does this happen expecially when you feel physically worse than usual and what do you do all day when you're in such condition?
