@Cheesus thank you for sharing in such detail.
I will tell you something I am not easy with: meditation, lol.
The whole mind-body thing is unsettling to me for the following reason:
- I know that mind-body dualism is stupid, and mind-body holism is a thing
- I know that the ability of the mind to steer the body's functions is incredible; yet it also has its limits
- I know that people who preach in mind-body holism often have a series of unsavoury suppositions attached:
- People who aren't well 'just' need to meditate / eat right etc.
- People who are ill misbehaved (the healthier-than-thou mindset)
- Therefore people who are ill deserve it
This dichotomy / cognitive dissonance between the first half of these and the rest continues to make me uncomfortable.
I have always been able to 'switch off' my adrenergic system if I focused. I had my first and last panic attack in the second year of grad school by relying on this ability. (I told my friends in the program about this, wall-eyed, and they were all,
oooh, she had her first panic attack, that's so CUTE!. I was the youngest in my program by a good bit.)
But I've never been able to cool down my PEM symptoms using this technique, because they cross that barrier between what my mind can and cannot make my body do.
If you can, more power to you!
-J