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Hello
I don't normally post to fora because I'm severely autistic and I usually end up getting banned within a week, but I'm beyond desperate now - and the NHS is beyond USELESS!
I hope you don't mind this post, as I've never been officially diagnosed with CFS/CPS/ME/fibro/lupus - or any other condition this forum covers, but I've so many similar symptoms, that there might be SOMEONE who can help me - I'm WAY BEYOND DESPERATE NOW!
I've always been a believer in holistic cures, and won't go near mainstream 'medicine' if I can POSSIBLY help it. Knowing what I know about the NHS now, I see it as nothing more than the UK sales and distribution arm of Big Pharma - it's NOT concerned with HEALTH AT ALL!
10 years ago, I was morbidly obese and type 2 (I have PCOS). I got all the usual BS from the NHS (and, had I known it was BS at the time, I may not be up shit creek now!). I was ordered to follow a VERY low-fat diet, and do all that chronic cardio BS (because 'calories in/calories out', y'know…).
The net result was that I ballooned from 24 stone to 30. Of course, it was MY fault, I wasn't following the diet properly, I was still eating too much fat, I wasn't exercising enough, yadda, yadda, yadda…
So, I did my own research (being high-functioning autistic has its benefits sometimes!) and found the NHS was telling me BS (and probably KNEW it was telling me BS, too…).
So, I switched to a LCHF Palaeo diet - and lost 23 stone within 3 years and, for a while, I felt FANTASTIC!
I cut out ALL grains, ate plenty of grass-fed butter, lard, EVCO, EVOO, pastured red meat (when I could afford it - I'm on disability benefits), offal, pastured eggs, and I did eat non-cow dairy (goats', sheep's and buffalo). I was very strict, cutting my carbs down to <30g/day in the weight-loss phase, and using intermittent fasting, MCT oil, strong black coffee and moderate fasted cardio to help accelerate my loss.
For 6 years, I felt fantastic; then, about 3-4 years ago, I started having problems with maintaining energy after eating. I was subsequently diagnosed with gallstones (unsurprising, considering how obese I'd been) - and then, of course, I came up against NHS BS once again. Now, I know that most of you MUST know the sole function of your gallbladder is to aid in the metabolism and digestion of dietary fats, right…? It OUGHT to in constant use because fat should be your primary fuel source (this is WHY this country has a weight problem - humans aren't meant to shovel vast quantities of carbs down their necks; I view obesity as a food intolerance because it's caused by eating an incorrect diet - one that goes against our evolutionary blueprint. Next time someone espouses the benefits of whole grains, think on this: - if humans were meant to eat grains, then WHY would ANYONE suffer from coeliac disease…? Logical, right…? If grains were supposed to be consumed in any quantity by us, then we'd ALL be able to tolerate them. The fact that some people can't to a greater extent means that we ALL can't to a lesser extent).
Okay, gallbladders. The analogy I like to use is to liken it to a car's petrol tank; what happens if you put petrol in your car, and then don't drive it for ages…?! What happens to that fuel…? Goes all sludgy and causes engine problems, right…? So it is with your gallbladder; if you adhere to a LFHC diet, as the NHS claims is healthy, then your gallbladder is not going to be doing much - and neither is your bile. So, how can gallstones be caused by using your gallbladder properly…? Keep the bile moving, just like you keep the petrol in your car moving by driving it, and the bile can't solidify, can it…? How can preventing the gallbladder from doing its job be a good idea…?! Sadly, this logic is wasted on the NHS, which is why I've washed my hands of it.
There are other reasons, too, notably my thyroid. I believe I've been suffering from thyroid issues for about as long as I have gallbladder issues, but numptie here went AGAINST her gut instinct (you'd have thought she'd have known better, wouldn't ya…?!) and BELIEVED her quack when she continually told her that all her bloods showed her thyroid was functioning optimally (do you KNOW how impossibly HARD it is for me to deal with quacks…?! I can't talk to 'em - it's like my larynx shuts down - so I have to be pretty desperate to go ANYWHERE near one. Add my complete lack of social skills to that and you can, I hope, begin to understand my problem).
I have since learnt that the blood test for thyroid issues is BS. It's based upon the ranges presented by people with thyroid issues (logical - you won't have your thyroid checked if it's not causing probs, will you…?) - so how can a 'normal range' be anything BUT abnormal…?!
So that's me and the NHS - I've done with it. I'm flying this ship solo now - and I feel like I'm in the middle of the south seas in a tempest, and I've completely lost control of the ship. To put it bluntly, I feel like shite.
I've ZERO energy
My body feels like it's made of lead
I'm suffering fibro-like musculoskeletal pain
I'm losing my hair Big Time
I've severe GI issues (my IBS, which going Palaeo sorted, is back - and it's EVIL! I've always had C more than D - and now I'm almost permanently C! I've also an EXTREMELY swollen and distended belly)
'Hyper-spasmodic' colon (and eating makes THAT worse too).
Insomnia
Inability to derive energy from my food (and my diet is shit now; I'm almost back to eating LFHC again - and that makes me VERY uncomfortable). Gone are the days I only needed to eat a single VHF meal per day/24hrs), so I'm CONSTANTLY HUNGRY (and, when you can't eat the LCHF diet you're used to eating, and you've got PCOS, then your mind turns to gaining weight again…).
Feeling thirsty - without actually BEING thirsty.
Depression (and I've NEVER been depressed in my life)
Nausea (whether I eat - or not)
Skin probs (but ONLY on the right side of my body - limited to my right arm, really. Dry skin (psoriasis?) on my elbow, back of my hand and, recently ( within the last 3-4 weeks) a VERY itchy patch on my right palm.
Periods more irregular than usual (and VERY heavy. TOTM also exacerbates everything else).
I have 4 goals (and they're not very big - none involve leaving the house, because I can't do that at the mo - I'm bedridden!)
1. Having enough energy to have a proper shower and wash my hair (not been able to do so since the beginning of January)
2. Having enough energy to be able to listen to online radio for longer than 15-30 mins at a time
3. Being able to get back to eating LCHF Palaeo again (I don't know what you know about autism, but we HATE being unable to do what we know is 'safe')
4. Actually, I lied. This one DOES involve leaving the house because I've not been able to in 3.5 YEARS! I HATE being cooped up; I may not be very good around people, but I know of places I can go to be outside and not have to have contact with anyone.
Okay, here's my supplement list. This is what I need help with most, as I need to start getting better like NOW! I'm EXTREMELY FRUSTRATED now (well you would be too if all you can do all day is lie in bed!).
B100 complex (1 a day)
Vitamin C (10g in 2l water)
Vitamin D (50,000IU once a week)
mB12 (10mg daily)
Vitamin K2 (500mcg daily)
CoQ10 (300mg daily)
P-5-P (300mg daily)
Zinc (60mg x 2 daily)
Selenium (up to 1.2g daily)
Iodine (KI - this is what I most need help with; I've got a bottle of Iodoral 12.5mg (all I could get) and, for the past 3 days I've been taking 400mg (32 tabs daily) alongside 1,200mg selenium (selenomethionine). I believe getting THIS right is the key to solving EVERYTHING - would I be correct in that assumption…?)
Fe (NOW Foods iron complex - 27mg iron. 1 tab daily)
I've bought some manganese (14mg tabs) thinking the iron might be depleting my Mn levels (I know too much is a Bad Thing, but you do need SOME).
EAAs (no idea on weights, unless specified, as all the pouches came with one of those ubiquitous 5ml blue scoops that appear to accompany bulk EAA pouches)
ALCAR (1 scoop daily)
Taurine (1 scoop daily)
Tyrosine (1 scoop daily)
DL-phenylalanine (1 scoop daily)
Lysine (1 scoop daily)
Tryptophan (200mg daily)
Theanine (200mg daily)
Not EAAs, but: -
TMG powder (1 scoop daily)
Choline bitartrate (1 scoop daily)
I have spent literally HUNDREDS attempting to get this right, and NOTHING seems to be working. Like I said earlier, I'm on ESA/DLA, so simply DON'T have money to chuck away. Most of the frustration stems from the fact that I can't see an end to this - and I NEED hope. I need someone to tell me WHERE I'm going wrong, what I need to change, if there's anything I'm missing - but SPELL IT OUT! I may SEEM to have braincells but, when it comes to things like this I'm pretty stupid. Tell me WHAT to DO, WHAT to TAKE (and HOW MUCH), and WHEN to DO/TAKE IT.
If there's anything I've missed/you need to know, TELL ME - I just want to start getting better soon. I also want to start growing MJ to help with my autism - and my general health - but I'm in NO FIT STATE to even THINK of that now…
I've had 2 'not bad' days but today I'm back feeling like total shite again. Haven't been able to stop crying all morning - and it's not even TOTM (period finished about a week/10 days ago.
I apologise for the choice language, but I'm autistic and I'm stressed. I'm scrabbling around in the dark, looking for a light switch all the time attempting to avoid being devoured by a Grue - or something from the Dungeon Dimensions.
It's robbed me of EVERY little pleasure I had in life (which weren't many). Just feel I'm lying in bed awaiting Death (and I can't play chess either, so cheating ain't an option*).
*If you're not a Discworld nut, these jokes won't make any sense. It IS possible to cheat Death by playing him at chess - he can never remember which way the horsey moves.
Sorry, for my own amusement really. I DESPERATELY WANT to clean up my diet again, but that's not possible until food stops wiping me out.
Yes, we have some holistic practitioners in the UK, but I'm disabled and have hardly any spare money (hence the MJ - I'm saving up for that because it'll be cheaper than seeing a holistic therapist). I also live in the SE of England where, if you're not worth squillions, you may as well not exist. I'm stuck with my folks who, although they CLAIM they wish to help me, will only do so if I "conform to the NHS" ("If the NHS is good enough for everyone else, then it's good enough for you! What makes YOU so special that you have to be different from the rest of us…?!" Well, for a START, mother dearest, I LIKE my body; I'll only ever have the one, and I rather fancy NOT filling it full of toxins, if that's all the same to you…. They also fail to understand the difference between true wellness and merely being 'un-sick'. They believe themselves to be healthy; Dad's on 80mg Lipitor, omeprazole, propranolol, amoxicillin - and now the quack wants him on metformin, too. Mum isn't taking anything at the mo, but she IS overweight (adhering to a LFHC diet of course - she's lost 2lb in 6 months. Contrast that to when I was VLCHF to lose weight; I lost 2 STONE (28lb) in 6 months. Okay, I was fatter than she is, but LFHC isn't natural - and it's unsustainable).
My dad lost one of his best friends 3 years ago; he was relatively healthy, until he was put on Lipitor at 58. Then he developed diabetes, CHD (yep - one thing a quack WON'T tell you is that statins CAUSE CHD because high cholesterol is - 99% of the time - caused by elevated HDL cholesterol so, by lowering overall, you're lowering HDL - and increasing CHD risk). I have a VERY deep-rooted mistrust of mainstream 'medicine'; it's NOT about health (why would Big Pharma want you well…?! Well people are bad for business, right…?!).
3 years ago, at the age of 73, my dad's best mate Martyn dropped dead. I mean LITERALLY dropped dead. And I use 'literally' in the literal sense. His death certificate claimed 'liver failure due to type 2 diabetes' but he didn't HAVE diabetes prior to being stuck in Lipitor. He didn't really have ANYTHING, aside from all the usual 'side-effects' of a LFHC diet. He went from zero to around FORTY tabs a day (excluding any supplements he may have been taking). Dad and I don't really have much of a relationship, but I don't want him to end up dead too - and he's almost on the same combo as Martyn was. But he's his father's son and he refuses to listen (my grandpa was the most irascible, stubborn, obnoxious, obstreperous old bastard you'd ever meet. Dad's pretty much the same).
Even if I DIDN'T mistrust the NHS, dealing with it would be impossible as my autism is so severe I can't talk to ANYONE - and I mean LITERALLY talk, it's like my larynx packs up. I also suffer debilitating panic attacks and end up sectioned (the quack wanted to give me a script for 4mg risperidone - how about "NO!"…?! NOW do you understand WHY I need the MJ…? But that's got me into mass arguments with the folks. It's ILLEGAL, and "We're good people, we don't break the law". Funny idea of "good" if you ask me, upholding a law which doesn't nothing but criminalise decent people, and turns addicts into criminals by forcing them to cheat, steal even murder to get their fixes. Upholding a law like that to me is an unconscionable act, and I hope that I've stumbled across a forum full of like-minded folk.
Lots of things make me pissed - but none more so than the NHS and the Misuse of Drugs Act (Americans wiki it - it's accurate. It's the most evil, statistic, fascist, sadistic and reprehensible piece of legislation on the UK statue books. Our govt are STILL claiming that it cuts crime (yeah cos making shit illegal doesn't turn law-abiding citizens into criminals, does it…?!).
I've just had mother complaining about the state of my room again. See what I mean about them not actually giving a shit about ME…?!
Okay, I need to rest now (yep, writing this has wiped me out - and it's taken several DAYS to write).
Today's challenge WAS to attempt a shower but, as I've just had to crawl to the bog, that ain't gonna happen.
Big hugs all,
AN X
X
I don't normally post to fora because I'm severely autistic and I usually end up getting banned within a week, but I'm beyond desperate now - and the NHS is beyond USELESS!
I hope you don't mind this post, as I've never been officially diagnosed with CFS/CPS/ME/fibro/lupus - or any other condition this forum covers, but I've so many similar symptoms, that there might be SOMEONE who can help me - I'm WAY BEYOND DESPERATE NOW!
I've always been a believer in holistic cures, and won't go near mainstream 'medicine' if I can POSSIBLY help it. Knowing what I know about the NHS now, I see it as nothing more than the UK sales and distribution arm of Big Pharma - it's NOT concerned with HEALTH AT ALL!
10 years ago, I was morbidly obese and type 2 (I have PCOS). I got all the usual BS from the NHS (and, had I known it was BS at the time, I may not be up shit creek now!). I was ordered to follow a VERY low-fat diet, and do all that chronic cardio BS (because 'calories in/calories out', y'know…).
The net result was that I ballooned from 24 stone to 30. Of course, it was MY fault, I wasn't following the diet properly, I was still eating too much fat, I wasn't exercising enough, yadda, yadda, yadda…
So, I did my own research (being high-functioning autistic has its benefits sometimes!) and found the NHS was telling me BS (and probably KNEW it was telling me BS, too…).
So, I switched to a LCHF Palaeo diet - and lost 23 stone within 3 years and, for a while, I felt FANTASTIC!
I cut out ALL grains, ate plenty of grass-fed butter, lard, EVCO, EVOO, pastured red meat (when I could afford it - I'm on disability benefits), offal, pastured eggs, and I did eat non-cow dairy (goats', sheep's and buffalo). I was very strict, cutting my carbs down to <30g/day in the weight-loss phase, and using intermittent fasting, MCT oil, strong black coffee and moderate fasted cardio to help accelerate my loss.
For 6 years, I felt fantastic; then, about 3-4 years ago, I started having problems with maintaining energy after eating. I was subsequently diagnosed with gallstones (unsurprising, considering how obese I'd been) - and then, of course, I came up against NHS BS once again. Now, I know that most of you MUST know the sole function of your gallbladder is to aid in the metabolism and digestion of dietary fats, right…? It OUGHT to in constant use because fat should be your primary fuel source (this is WHY this country has a weight problem - humans aren't meant to shovel vast quantities of carbs down their necks; I view obesity as a food intolerance because it's caused by eating an incorrect diet - one that goes against our evolutionary blueprint. Next time someone espouses the benefits of whole grains, think on this: - if humans were meant to eat grains, then WHY would ANYONE suffer from coeliac disease…? Logical, right…? If grains were supposed to be consumed in any quantity by us, then we'd ALL be able to tolerate them. The fact that some people can't to a greater extent means that we ALL can't to a lesser extent).
Okay, gallbladders. The analogy I like to use is to liken it to a car's petrol tank; what happens if you put petrol in your car, and then don't drive it for ages…?! What happens to that fuel…? Goes all sludgy and causes engine problems, right…? So it is with your gallbladder; if you adhere to a LFHC diet, as the NHS claims is healthy, then your gallbladder is not going to be doing much - and neither is your bile. So, how can gallstones be caused by using your gallbladder properly…? Keep the bile moving, just like you keep the petrol in your car moving by driving it, and the bile can't solidify, can it…? How can preventing the gallbladder from doing its job be a good idea…?! Sadly, this logic is wasted on the NHS, which is why I've washed my hands of it.
There are other reasons, too, notably my thyroid. I believe I've been suffering from thyroid issues for about as long as I have gallbladder issues, but numptie here went AGAINST her gut instinct (you'd have thought she'd have known better, wouldn't ya…?!) and BELIEVED her quack when she continually told her that all her bloods showed her thyroid was functioning optimally (do you KNOW how impossibly HARD it is for me to deal with quacks…?! I can't talk to 'em - it's like my larynx shuts down - so I have to be pretty desperate to go ANYWHERE near one. Add my complete lack of social skills to that and you can, I hope, begin to understand my problem).
I have since learnt that the blood test for thyroid issues is BS. It's based upon the ranges presented by people with thyroid issues (logical - you won't have your thyroid checked if it's not causing probs, will you…?) - so how can a 'normal range' be anything BUT abnormal…?!
So that's me and the NHS - I've done with it. I'm flying this ship solo now - and I feel like I'm in the middle of the south seas in a tempest, and I've completely lost control of the ship. To put it bluntly, I feel like shite.
I've ZERO energy
My body feels like it's made of lead
I'm suffering fibro-like musculoskeletal pain
I'm losing my hair Big Time
I've severe GI issues (my IBS, which going Palaeo sorted, is back - and it's EVIL! I've always had C more than D - and now I'm almost permanently C! I've also an EXTREMELY swollen and distended belly)
'Hyper-spasmodic' colon (and eating makes THAT worse too).
Insomnia
Inability to derive energy from my food (and my diet is shit now; I'm almost back to eating LFHC again - and that makes me VERY uncomfortable). Gone are the days I only needed to eat a single VHF meal per day/24hrs), so I'm CONSTANTLY HUNGRY (and, when you can't eat the LCHF diet you're used to eating, and you've got PCOS, then your mind turns to gaining weight again…).
Feeling thirsty - without actually BEING thirsty.
Depression (and I've NEVER been depressed in my life)
Nausea (whether I eat - or not)
Skin probs (but ONLY on the right side of my body - limited to my right arm, really. Dry skin (psoriasis?) on my elbow, back of my hand and, recently ( within the last 3-4 weeks) a VERY itchy patch on my right palm.
Periods more irregular than usual (and VERY heavy. TOTM also exacerbates everything else).
I have 4 goals (and they're not very big - none involve leaving the house, because I can't do that at the mo - I'm bedridden!)
1. Having enough energy to have a proper shower and wash my hair (not been able to do so since the beginning of January)
2. Having enough energy to be able to listen to online radio for longer than 15-30 mins at a time
3. Being able to get back to eating LCHF Palaeo again (I don't know what you know about autism, but we HATE being unable to do what we know is 'safe')
4. Actually, I lied. This one DOES involve leaving the house because I've not been able to in 3.5 YEARS! I HATE being cooped up; I may not be very good around people, but I know of places I can go to be outside and not have to have contact with anyone.
Okay, here's my supplement list. This is what I need help with most, as I need to start getting better like NOW! I'm EXTREMELY FRUSTRATED now (well you would be too if all you can do all day is lie in bed!).
B100 complex (1 a day)
Vitamin C (10g in 2l water)
Vitamin D (50,000IU once a week)
mB12 (10mg daily)
Vitamin K2 (500mcg daily)
CoQ10 (300mg daily)
P-5-P (300mg daily)
Zinc (60mg x 2 daily)
Selenium (up to 1.2g daily)
Iodine (KI - this is what I most need help with; I've got a bottle of Iodoral 12.5mg (all I could get) and, for the past 3 days I've been taking 400mg (32 tabs daily) alongside 1,200mg selenium (selenomethionine). I believe getting THIS right is the key to solving EVERYTHING - would I be correct in that assumption…?)
Fe (NOW Foods iron complex - 27mg iron. 1 tab daily)
I've bought some manganese (14mg tabs) thinking the iron might be depleting my Mn levels (I know too much is a Bad Thing, but you do need SOME).
EAAs (no idea on weights, unless specified, as all the pouches came with one of those ubiquitous 5ml blue scoops that appear to accompany bulk EAA pouches)
ALCAR (1 scoop daily)
Taurine (1 scoop daily)
Tyrosine (1 scoop daily)
DL-phenylalanine (1 scoop daily)
Lysine (1 scoop daily)
Tryptophan (200mg daily)
Theanine (200mg daily)
Not EAAs, but: -
TMG powder (1 scoop daily)
Choline bitartrate (1 scoop daily)
I have spent literally HUNDREDS attempting to get this right, and NOTHING seems to be working. Like I said earlier, I'm on ESA/DLA, so simply DON'T have money to chuck away. Most of the frustration stems from the fact that I can't see an end to this - and I NEED hope. I need someone to tell me WHERE I'm going wrong, what I need to change, if there's anything I'm missing - but SPELL IT OUT! I may SEEM to have braincells but, when it comes to things like this I'm pretty stupid. Tell me WHAT to DO, WHAT to TAKE (and HOW MUCH), and WHEN to DO/TAKE IT.
If there's anything I've missed/you need to know, TELL ME - I just want to start getting better soon. I also want to start growing MJ to help with my autism - and my general health - but I'm in NO FIT STATE to even THINK of that now…
I've had 2 'not bad' days but today I'm back feeling like total shite again. Haven't been able to stop crying all morning - and it's not even TOTM (period finished about a week/10 days ago.
I apologise for the choice language, but I'm autistic and I'm stressed. I'm scrabbling around in the dark, looking for a light switch all the time attempting to avoid being devoured by a Grue - or something from the Dungeon Dimensions.
It's robbed me of EVERY little pleasure I had in life (which weren't many). Just feel I'm lying in bed awaiting Death (and I can't play chess either, so cheating ain't an option*).
*If you're not a Discworld nut, these jokes won't make any sense. It IS possible to cheat Death by playing him at chess - he can never remember which way the horsey moves.
Sorry, for my own amusement really. I DESPERATELY WANT to clean up my diet again, but that's not possible until food stops wiping me out.
Yes, we have some holistic practitioners in the UK, but I'm disabled and have hardly any spare money (hence the MJ - I'm saving up for that because it'll be cheaper than seeing a holistic therapist). I also live in the SE of England where, if you're not worth squillions, you may as well not exist. I'm stuck with my folks who, although they CLAIM they wish to help me, will only do so if I "conform to the NHS" ("If the NHS is good enough for everyone else, then it's good enough for you! What makes YOU so special that you have to be different from the rest of us…?!" Well, for a START, mother dearest, I LIKE my body; I'll only ever have the one, and I rather fancy NOT filling it full of toxins, if that's all the same to you…. They also fail to understand the difference between true wellness and merely being 'un-sick'. They believe themselves to be healthy; Dad's on 80mg Lipitor, omeprazole, propranolol, amoxicillin - and now the quack wants him on metformin, too. Mum isn't taking anything at the mo, but she IS overweight (adhering to a LFHC diet of course - she's lost 2lb in 6 months. Contrast that to when I was VLCHF to lose weight; I lost 2 STONE (28lb) in 6 months. Okay, I was fatter than she is, but LFHC isn't natural - and it's unsustainable).
My dad lost one of his best friends 3 years ago; he was relatively healthy, until he was put on Lipitor at 58. Then he developed diabetes, CHD (yep - one thing a quack WON'T tell you is that statins CAUSE CHD because high cholesterol is - 99% of the time - caused by elevated HDL cholesterol so, by lowering overall, you're lowering HDL - and increasing CHD risk). I have a VERY deep-rooted mistrust of mainstream 'medicine'; it's NOT about health (why would Big Pharma want you well…?! Well people are bad for business, right…?!).
3 years ago, at the age of 73, my dad's best mate Martyn dropped dead. I mean LITERALLY dropped dead. And I use 'literally' in the literal sense. His death certificate claimed 'liver failure due to type 2 diabetes' but he didn't HAVE diabetes prior to being stuck in Lipitor. He didn't really have ANYTHING, aside from all the usual 'side-effects' of a LFHC diet. He went from zero to around FORTY tabs a day (excluding any supplements he may have been taking). Dad and I don't really have much of a relationship, but I don't want him to end up dead too - and he's almost on the same combo as Martyn was. But he's his father's son and he refuses to listen (my grandpa was the most irascible, stubborn, obnoxious, obstreperous old bastard you'd ever meet. Dad's pretty much the same).
Even if I DIDN'T mistrust the NHS, dealing with it would be impossible as my autism is so severe I can't talk to ANYONE - and I mean LITERALLY talk, it's like my larynx packs up. I also suffer debilitating panic attacks and end up sectioned (the quack wanted to give me a script for 4mg risperidone - how about "NO!"…?! NOW do you understand WHY I need the MJ…? But that's got me into mass arguments with the folks. It's ILLEGAL, and "We're good people, we don't break the law". Funny idea of "good" if you ask me, upholding a law which doesn't nothing but criminalise decent people, and turns addicts into criminals by forcing them to cheat, steal even murder to get their fixes. Upholding a law like that to me is an unconscionable act, and I hope that I've stumbled across a forum full of like-minded folk.
Lots of things make me pissed - but none more so than the NHS and the Misuse of Drugs Act (Americans wiki it - it's accurate. It's the most evil, statistic, fascist, sadistic and reprehensible piece of legislation on the UK statue books. Our govt are STILL claiming that it cuts crime (yeah cos making shit illegal doesn't turn law-abiding citizens into criminals, does it…?!).
I've just had mother complaining about the state of my room again. See what I mean about them not actually giving a shit about ME…?!
Okay, I need to rest now (yep, writing this has wiped me out - and it's taken several DAYS to write).
Today's challenge WAS to attempt a shower but, as I've just had to crawl to the bog, that ain't gonna happen.
Big hugs all,
AN X
X
