A book I have worked with focuses on this Dark Nite, this suffering we experience. We feel anxiety. We feel fear. We seek the cause of our misfortune. We blame.
I think I made a valiant effort. And the False Roots= Myalgic Encephalomyelitis- did not fall away.
It was not pruned, it was not burned and turned to ash.
Other things in my life turned to ash (career, possessions, art, etc). The ME far worse (not the plan, and don't feel like getting worse comes with the territory...it doesn't)
So I give myself the Prince Valient award for Really and Sincerely Trying....