Hell...Hath...No...Fury..
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I've just thought of an example of the whole switching off thing.
A few years ago i was in a loud pub with someone. I was running on raw adrenaline just to be able to hold a conversation in loud music. I was outwardly managing but descretely dying inside.
Someone came along and sat down on the other side of the person i was with and they started chatting leaving me to stare at the table as i couldn't hear. (Cue end of night for me) It was probably only for 10 mins or so but every minute they were chatting i was switching off and sinking deeper into the crash.
By the time the person i was with turned and asked if i was okay. I'd deflated and tranced out so much i had to leave, there is no re-engaging. I can't upscale; back up to chatting and engaging again because ive sank too many levels below to climb back up again.
The person i was with then thought i was peed off because they were chatting to someone else. I'm secretly upset because it does look like i'm being that petty from an outside perspective but too ill to explain why i've crashed.
Had the convo kept going i may have been out for another hour riding on adrenaline but once the cut off/rest break was inserted; that created an instant end to the night for me while leaving me feeling bad too because of what the person i was with thought i was reacting to
A few years ago i was in a loud pub with someone. I was running on raw adrenaline just to be able to hold a conversation in loud music. I was outwardly managing but descretely dying inside.
Someone came along and sat down on the other side of the person i was with and they started chatting leaving me to stare at the table as i couldn't hear. (Cue end of night for me) It was probably only for 10 mins or so but every minute they were chatting i was switching off and sinking deeper into the crash.
By the time the person i was with turned and asked if i was okay. I'd deflated and tranced out so much i had to leave, there is no re-engaging. I can't upscale; back up to chatting and engaging again because ive sank too many levels below to climb back up again.
The person i was with then thought i was peed off because they were chatting to someone else. I'm secretly upset because it does look like i'm being that petty from an outside perspective but too ill to explain why i've crashed.
Had the convo kept going i may have been out for another hour riding on adrenaline but once the cut off/rest break was inserted; that created an instant end to the night for me while leaving me feeling bad too because of what the person i was with thought i was reacting to