I'm glad the anxiety resolved . A lot of medications come with problems so it's a tough call but I think short term , some are useful , as in your case.
Your dr is probably right about anxiety . Maybe mj helped with that until you got the eye glitches . It's good they went away when you quit smoking .
I developed eye glitches a year ago but that was when a dr did some damage so I know how unsettling it is when they glitch out like that, it takes a minute to even know what happened or before you remind yourself , that's not normal. It will settle all down so you did the smart thing to back off of the mj.
I think that's awesome you're active and working on getting back into hockey, just take your time .
How is your nutrition? Put a lot of effort into a very good diet , you can get everything from whole food (not the store , just mean real food).
You could always have your labs drawn to check your thyroid , b12 and iron, ferritin and CBC and such . Just to be sure .
Careful with B vitamins . It's true b12 flushes out but no need to go overboard . Some of the other b vitamins can cause nerve problems , just use caution.
Your nervous system is re-calibrating and your emotions are bound to have some trouble when withdrawal and adjustment is going on . Just tell yourself it's part of the process to get to the other side . The only way out is through .
Once you get time under your belt , you'll see what's left. You can try acupuncture , meditation , so many things . Easy on medications and doctors would be my suggestion . That stuff messed a lot of us up
I think with mj, you'll be ok. I know there is the other stuff but believe me , I've known people who were told they have permanent brain damage or wet brain , and with time , they were sharp and productive and those are extreme cases .
Washing dishes is labor and hard work . Maybe working with your hands is good for now but I know it's not easy, on your feet and they keep coming I'm sure. But it's working for now .
You don't have to feel
You need to do everything. Have your routine . Try down activities like reading or listening to music . Maybe avoid caffeine . Sit in the park . Go out in nature
I think it's wise that you shared your story , takes the heaviness out of it . I have a really good feeling you're going to do well. You are brave and honest and making smart choices .
One thing I wish I adhered to better is, avoid chemicals. Things like air refresheners , heavy home cleaners, just eliminate everything toxic . Try those more simple deodorants and toothpaste lines . The less toxins you put on yourself , the better .
Drink
A lot of water . You will be amazed how much avoiding unnatural and toxic things and eating well, can do for you . Make it a new hobby , find farmers markets . You can make lentils .
Avoid high fructose corn syrup , avoid all these things that will wear your body down . That stuff is so toxic . If I smell it for a second , I can't breathe , toxin overload is bad news and I was a healthy person .
Be mindful of what you're around . You're going to do well, you have good intuition and are striving to take care of yourself all the time . Really glad you shared what's going on .