I have so much trouble just trying to make out a grocery store list. My brain just doesn't want to do it. Just simple things like that and my brain feels like it goes into overload. Filling out forms will do it to me, too. This awful feeling of adult aspergers or something. I can't make the brain do these things. It's like I'm forcing it.
I hate cognitive symptoms
I know Carrigon, my house is stacked high with piles of undealt with paperwork, some of it the paperwork of Insurance refunds. I'm always amazed when I go into other peoples houses and they are empty except for the usual furniture etc. The awful thing about paperwork is that no one can do it for you. Just the sight of it makes me panicky.
Is there anywhere in/near your house where you feel peaceful and tranquil? For example your local library, I love mine, everything is free (except photocopying) , and the people there are lovely, with free use of the Internet Plus there is a calm air of endless time, no pressure. Could you bring one task there to do? Just one, and reward yourself with a long browse of the books.
I use the work/reward thing a lot, do something long overdue, and then I allow myself a look at the 'Greek houses for sale' website I love.
I think a considerable part of the problem which adds to the cognitive difficulties is that over time, many years of exhaustion with this condition (and often undiagnosed for years). Things tend to build up, to put it mildly. I moved into this house 16 years ago and parts have never been decorated. I never seem to have the stamina for long projects, and then everything seems huge even to get started on.
One thing that really clears my head is Yoga. I think it's because you realise after how trivial it all is really and you do have the skills and the time, its just that a tired mind builds it up to much more than it is. Another thing that helps is being somewhere beautiful, usually the woods and hills.
Wishing you the best Carrigon, be good to yourself.