Ironically I am a practicing Buddhist and I was meditating every day before I took ill and yet I still took ill.
2 years before a serious illness (introduced
here) I had a very stressful job, where I knew from the beginning I had to reduce it to avoid burnout. Couldn't, therefore I had to quit and thought just avoided worse. Wrongly thought - a month later got my serious diagnosis
Never thought it
the cause, but the proverbial 'straw that broke the camels back'. Ironically too why this would happen to me, because I actually had practiced in a Burmese forest monastery even for 2 years! However, that practice made it more easier for me to understand everything co-dependently conditioned. Biochemical reactions can become the cause for thoughts and emotions, thoughts and emotions the cause for biochemical reactions.
And in retrospect these 2 stressful years were filled with disadvantageous biochemistry: My first root canal, a mypericarditis, and a shistomasias. So indeed, maybe all these were co-factors for being less resilient, therefore more stressed, and finally coming down with chronic illness. Everything intricately interwoven, as it usually is.
Psychological reactions or physiological reactions are the same in my book. They are never your fault. But still we get blamed for both. That needs to stop.
My training in Buddhist meditation at least made it easier to let go of guilt, for physical or mental processes usually considered 'mine'.. In this practice one persistently sees everything perceived, felt, thought, reacted to and conscious of - as impermanent - therefore not really able to keep it's allure of lasting happiness - therefore deep down not really what could be considered mine, what I am, or my self.
Feelings can't be that easily stopped, but it is possible to not reinforce them with 'mine' at every occurrence, that allows them to unfold, with attention and equanimity. And pass again.
PS: Needless to say: hurtful feelings don't simply turn into CFS. Nor can their resolution be expected to lead to remission. But it sure helps being friendly to them, for being a bid more at ease.