Interested to hear your experiences. At first when I got sick it wasn’t that big of a deal emotionally for the first few months. I knew something was wrong and the drs would figure out what it was. Lymes, thyroid, sleep study, anemia, even cancer. As the months and labs and tests went by and not finding anything I remember becoming more and more worried and scared. After about 8 or 9 months of this I started realizing that I’m in deep shit. What is going on? Endo and neurology. Nothing. Oh oh. At this point you don’t even care what it is as long as you know and can live or die with it. 17 months later I do know but am not getting diagnosed. Just lost my job cuz I am simply spent. Have nothing left. House bound pretty much now. Pretty much been hung out to dry. Dr has nothing left to test. Everything is ruled out. Am i depressed? Hell yes. I pretty much just want to die. Watching everyone you know and see going on with their lives and looking forward to tomorrow and planning things. Knowing that you don’t know what you’re fighting nor does anyone else and miss your healthy, happy life so much and finally realize it’s not coming back can make a guy look up suicide methods. I have been. It actually makes me feel some relief realizing that you don’t have to keep doing this. Anyway, just wanted to talk. You guys know. Never wanted CFS because I wanted to make a complete comeback and really appreciate and love my life this time. That woulda been so cool. Woulda loved to have cancer instead so I could win and make that comeback. You know, have a normal disease that everyone is in tune with and you can kick it’s ass? This really sucks and nobody cares or knows .