I have been ill for eighteen years. I have in the last three months got a great deal better. I attribute this to coming off all the drugs I was on. Some days I have been feeling nearly normal which has been so very very beautiful. Insomnia has been significantly worse but for the first time in my entire adult life I have had hope and a bit of happiness. I started to think I might be able to live. Then I get a stomach bug. My partner gets it a week after me. We do not know where we got it from. My partner recovers in five days and I am still sick two weeks later. I am no longer throwing up but I have nausea, low energy, IBS and feel depressed. I realise this is what we go through every day (and worse of course) but I was getting better. It had only taken me eighteen years! I wake sick and low and it is a different sick and low to normal (it is only since this bug) and to be honest I cannot even begin to describe my sadness, anger and fear that this is now my normal...again!!!! I simply can't have tasted health for a month or two to have it ripped from me by a stomach bug. I can't . I just can't mentally accept that. I now think of suicide and it has taken me four years to overcome that. I mean what is the effing point of it all if something can come along and rip everything from you. HAs anyone had a sickness bug (24 hour being sick) and taken a long time to recover but recovered? It is the depression that is worrying me. Im used to all the physical shit. I don't want to hear from people who never recovered as it would tip me over the edge. All these feelings started on the first day of the sickness bug. I couldnt stop crying and it hasn't stopped. I feel like giving up. Every day I wake and feel bad from this bug and all I can think about is how I wished in the USA and could get a gun. I just want to reiterate, I was the BEST I HAVE EVER BEEN before this bug. There is no point in me living now.