thanks for your sympathy
I am in blackpool.
my mother is a hoarder, fills her house with junk and never cleans it either. she used to live here and the house was a mess then and shes moved out but im obviously not in a position to fix it. if things break she wont get them fixed - electricity downstairs, phone, bath, hotwater. that's partly why I ended up with no friends left because once I was housebound/bedridden she wouldn't let new people/strangers/aquaintances in because of the state of the house. there is now no one left in blackpool that I know and im not in a position to make new friends being bedridden in a dark room, unable to talk much.
social services arranged for carers to come in but she wouldn't let them in my room because it was full of boxes of her junk/clutter and the room hadn't been cleaned in years. I was too ill to get up and go in another room to see carers. so shed take them out shopping instead or have them prepare food in the kitchen. while i continued to be neglected. social services don't know that - if they find out I wasn't having contact with the carers theyd use that as an excuse to say im reclusive. I complained repeatedly to her, but she wouldn't clear my room. eventually I sent an email to her friend which shamed her into clearing my room, but she just moved the junk downstairs so now she wont let people in the downstairs rooms.
careplan has now been switched to direct payments, but she wouldn't let a stranger in the house while its like this so she got an expupil (shes a teacher) to be temporary carer til she made the house more respectable. 1.5yr later she still hasn't. he complained about the smell of cats so she would let him in after that. ive since found out hes a pervert whose been accused of stalking by 3 different women so I don't want him here either. I managed to put advert up for someone to clear house for me (to be paid by direct payments) but she got very angry and said she wouldn't let a stranger in the house while its this bad. social services have now ordered her to get a cleaner in (someone she knows) so theres some improvement. but I still haven't got a proper carer and no one who could advocate. I keep having premonitions my mum is going to die this year, and im going to be left alone in squalor with no family or friends left and mental health social workers are going to come back and say im not going out for mental reasons. im not mental its my mother. shes the hoarder not me.
I cant move because I cant afford to pay for this house and another. and I cant let this house until its cleared cleaned and renovated. and im not able to do that myself. and last time I tried to go in a car the motion of the car was completely unbearable.
I cant use the phone. im 3% or less, on hummingbirds scale. fluctuates.