3 months ago (Feb 1st to Feb 10th) I did a parasite cleanse.. I did it because my gut has never felt 100% (nothing awful, just always felt like digestion could be better etc) and because I'd read so much online of people claiming all these different benefits, I thought I'd give it a go.. (Mistake.) I used Cloves, Wormwood and Black Walnut. Starting with 1000mg of each a day if I recall, and tapered up to 3000mg of each a day if I recall... (Probably FAR too much.) I was naive and clueless. Throughout the ten days I felt a bit off, irritable, mood decline, then on the 11th day (the day after finishing) I woke up and felt totally off. Very anxious, but otherwise flat. Like, void of emotion or feeling. It's 3 months later, and I've still not bounced back from it. I've been depressed before, and this feels totally different. Before when I'd been depressed I obviously felt a diminished drive etc, but I feel totally void of any drive. Even my sex drive has disappeared. I'm not sad at all, I just feel devoid of life?! It's a very bizarre thing to try and explain, but I'm certain the parasite cleanse has caused it. What I don't understand is why. Some people claim 'die off' causes mood issues, but that should pass.. this came on and hasn't left since. I really find it hard to believe this at all related to 'die off'. Some other people have suggested I may have damaged my gut bacteria.. I'm 10 days into using a 50 billion probiotic (Renew Life Critical Care), in some ways I feel it's helped ,but I still feel flat? It's hard to explain.. The overarching feeling of flatness, and lack of life/drive is still there. Does anyone else have any other ideas? I've heard some people claim herbs like wormwood can cause issues like this, possibly due to toxicity, but I can't get a clear answer as to exactly why and if there's a way to undo/fix it? I'm really starting to wonder if I've caused some sort of irreversible damage in my brain circuity somewhere. I'm really at a loss here?