Over the past 5 years, my mental health has been slowly eroding due to some major stressors. I've also been drinking coffee for 5 years, and am wondering if I should cut it out or if it is helping me. I only have one cup in the morning, but it gives me a very strong boost of happiness and euphoria. I can think of any stressful situation and it doesn't upset me anymore. Instead, I think of solutions and have so much hope. I imagine myself healing and actually cry sometimes at how overwhelmingly hopeful that idea makes me. I seriously feel my body surging with joy and happiness. I know, intense reaction. No shakiness, sweating, anxiety, racing heart, or any of the typical side effects that other people have. Then as the day goes on, I go back to my usual state of dread, irritability, and emotional greyness. I can still appear outwardly calm and fine, but inside all of my emotions go back to feeling bunched up and bad. Over the years, the good effects have become much shorter (~30 minutes now, as opposed to all day when I first started). I also respond super well (in a similar way) to Sam-E, although the effects have been dwindling. I'm wondering, does coffee impact methylation? And is it helping me, or is it using up all my neurotransmitters at once, leaving me to feel bad for the rest of the day? Obviously I don't need to be walking around crying with joy all day long, so I'm just curious if cutting out coffee would help to slowly level things out, or if it would ruin the only good part of my day. I was 100% happy/fine/healthy without coffee for my entire life before I started, so I feel like my body should be able to feel like that again without coffee. Thanks!