notmyself
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I feel very bad the last days, maybe is pem ,i don't know..but is a wake up call that i actually not improving as i tought.. Today is particulary bad,I probably have some sort of psychosis right now,but i trully hate my body,i feel like is my enemy,so i'm gonna give him something to remember..i'm going for a run ,to see how much i can till the point of collapsing.
If i can run 20 km( ridicoulous psychotic hope) especially today on what seems to be pem for me, i will consider myself just insane ,having somatic disorder or other psychological issue and that the fatigue and the rest of symtoms i am feeling are not from an organic cause.At least psychological issues can be cured,there is hope..with this disease there is none..I will more than sure would not run even half than that distance,but i will die trying..I'm young ,i was in good shape, if i don't have cfs i should be able do do it..Period..
If i can run 20 km( ridicoulous psychotic hope) especially today on what seems to be pem for me, i will consider myself just insane ,having somatic disorder or other psychological issue and that the fatigue and the rest of symtoms i am feeling are not from an organic cause.At least psychological issues can be cured,there is hope..with this disease there is none..I will more than sure would not run even half than that distance,but i will die trying..I'm young ,i was in good shape, if i don't have cfs i should be able do do it..Period..