I was participating in one of the fiery threads when I got this thrown at me:
What a weird and inflammatory thing to say.
We'll need to put aside the fact that I'm not interested in moderating. Been there, done that, didn't even get the T-shirt. I've moderated on a lot of forums in the past. I can do it, but it's not fun. I just like helping people. Conflict is stressful. I need less stress in my life, not more.
Aside from that, this person felt like saying that knowing nothing about my life.
They don't know that I just started working part time as an employee for the first time in my adult life 4 months ago, as I've been too ill to work previously for my entire adult life.
They don't know that I also freelance to make ends meet, scrambling for anything that will earn additional income on a daily basis.
They don't know that my fiance walked out on a good job because they treated him badly. He had, and has, my full support on that.
They don't know that I'm TERRIFIED I am working myself too hard, causing my health to collapse again. These days I often don't have a single day I'm not working. The bills are barely paid.
They don't know that this week I worked nearly 6 hours straight the day after I was wheelchairbound with a 101 degree fever and severe chills due to a viral infection. Or that today I worked 6 hours on my feet, only to drive half an hour and work another 3 hours on my feet, to drive home and collapse.
I'll do it again tomorrow.
And I am scared. And I am doing my best. And I'm hoping and praying that everything works out.
Tonight I arrived home to learn that my fiance's latest job wasn't going to work out, because the fumes made him physically ill.
I got on PR and I read and posted because I care about this place.
And someone just wants to accuse me of taking a certain "side" because I want a certain volunteer position?
Let it go on public record: I DON'T WANT TO BE A MODERATOR.
I just want to help where I can. Sometimes it can be that simple.
Remember the human.
Don't forget the human.
Blog entry posted by Dainty, Sep 16, 2017.
About the Author
Dainty became ill as a teenager and spent 7 years mostly bedridden from ME/CFS, life-threatening MCS reactions, extreme food allergies/sensitivities, cognitive impairment, fibromyalgia, episodes of temporary paralysis and various unexplained emergencies. The past 5 years she has experienced profound improvement from various treatment approaches. With homelessness and PTSD presenting as significant obstacles, she continues to pursue healing full time and find incorrigible opportunities to enjoy life.