Yesterday, I did things that normal people take for granted and can do with no problems. I went to the bank, I went to put gas in the car, and I went to the foodstore. I wasn't feeling too bad yesterday. I wasn't lightheaded. I just had bad arthritis pain.
Today, I am so flared up that I can't do anything. I have the light and sound sensitivity so bad that if anyone decides to be loud here today, I'll have to either put in earplugs or put the white noise on. The light hurts my eyes so badly, I've been considering putting on sunglasses in my apartment. Pain all over my body. I am so incredibly ill.
What amazes me is how I can go from being fairly okay and doing things normal people do all the time. To suffering the tortures of hell the next day. I am paying in spades for going out. I didn't do anything different from what a normal person does. They were normal errands. Nothing was very far from where I live and I drove myself. And yet, these normal things flare me up so badly. I don't know how long this flare will last now. I have to spend time resting it out. I don't understand why it has to be this way. Why can't we ever do normal things without paying a horrible price for it?
Today, I am so flared up that I can't do anything. I have the light and sound sensitivity so bad that if anyone decides to be loud here today, I'll have to either put in earplugs or put the white noise on. The light hurts my eyes so badly, I've been considering putting on sunglasses in my apartment. Pain all over my body. I am so incredibly ill.
What amazes me is how I can go from being fairly okay and doing things normal people do all the time. To suffering the tortures of hell the next day. I am paying in spades for going out. I didn't do anything different from what a normal person does. They were normal errands. Nothing was very far from where I live and I drove myself. And yet, these normal things flare me up so badly. I don't know how long this flare will last now. I have to spend time resting it out. I don't understand why it has to be this way. Why can't we ever do normal things without paying a horrible price for it?