Its about 1 am here and just killing a few minutes before Jeremy is ready for bed. We forgot our b12 shots till sometime after 10 tonight so not in a big rush for bed. Seemed like the lesser of the two problems - skip them a day or be up late.
Don't have enough time I don't think to reply to your email today fully so will hit it in the next few days. The simple reply - sure sounds like a lot of really fun stuff you've got going on! Good luck with the relatives visiting if I forget to wish it later.
Well, Jeremy and I had a long chat tonight. Happened after I went for a bit of a walk by myself tonight. Jeremy's ankle was kinda sore from some exercising we tried last night so he stayed home. Was good to get out by myself for a bit anyways. Granted I chatted with myself and nature the whole way I walked, but was a good chat.
Ended up giving me lots to think about and talk to Jeremy about. We ended up talking for probably 2+ hours but I think it ended in a really positive place. Not a fully happy place, but positive.
The not happy part is because of where our health is right now. Quite frankly I'm rather worried about us. We seem to have suddenly had a rather large downturn these last several weeks and we always are so dang close to that point of life being more than we can keep up with, that any downhill motion is very worrisome.
But we figured a few more things out and hopefully will have some stuff improve in the next few months from it.
Its hard coming right out and saying stuff like this, you know? Hard to admit just how low we end up sometimes. We really need more help but I don't think there is any where to get it from. Most of the type of help we need is beyond what Jeremy's dad can do and we are simply too broke to afford to pay someone for work.
We need to be indoors. Life is so very much hard outside like this. :/ It tears me up to see Ron's place every day just off through the woods about 200ft and know he has a spare bedroom we could use with very little notice. But figure there's no point to it because we get ill just being downwind of his open door/windows on sunny days so I really doubt we could live there.
You know what occurred to me yesterday? Summer 2004 was likely the last time I might possibly have been inside a house, but only for a visit. Might even have been 2003. I know 2003 was the last time we cooked inside a real kitchen and that was while sleeping in a friend's yard and using their house one night when they were out of town, though we just cooked and watched some tv before going back outside. Was a nice and low toxic place, unfortunately they sold it and moved about a year later.
Fall 2002 was the last time I lived or slept indoors. December 13, 2002 was the date we left all that and have been in a tent since. That's a long friggin' time.
But aside from the length of time, its our health. We need to be indoors. I don't know if I'm going to find a way to make that happen and the worse our health gets, the less options we have.
I'm not sure what happened, we had been doing well with the diet change for a while. But we've been getting weaker and more easily injured the last maybe two months. Its a real problem, we don't have much to loose. I'm actually thinking about paying Robb Wolf for some consultation time in another month or two if we can't swing things around ourselves. Just don't know what to do and I think part of it might be diet. Its like - all of a sudden we just stopped getting the nutrition we need from what we eat. Will see our normal doc first and see what he suggests, but talking to Robb in a nutritionist type capacity might not be a bad thing. Might be well worth the money and at least this way we would know its a person who has some knowledge of diets like this.
Honestly, it really feels like somethings gotta change in the next few months. We'll do pretty much anything to find that change because things stopped working right for us and in a big/bad way. I am very hopeful still that Jeremy being off his candida med will be that change, but it may have pushed our already taxed bodies too far. I'm a bit scared to be honest. Hard to admit, but I am.
We'll find a way, we have to. I just would feel a lot better if I had an inkling of what that might be.
I know you've said that you pray for us sometimes. I really don't think I've ever asked anyone to pray for me before, but think you could toss in an extra good word or two for us?
heh, here I had intended on making sure to write something that wouldn't worry you and I've a strong suspicion that I failed on that point. I am sorry for the worry, I just really needed to tell someone these things. Well, someone besides Jeremy. I just hadn't wanted to add to your load and I do most certainly apologize for it.
So yeah, had a good long talk with Jeremy tonight about all this and more. Started some fresh action that should help towards putting things right for us with just a bit of luck.
Alrighty, Jeremy's done and its very late here. I got longer winded here than planned and now he's been waiting for me. lol I'm going to head off to bed and hopefully a good night's sleep. Big hugs, Lisa