My friend has asked me how I am, and I don't know how truthful I should be. We have messaged a little bit since uni got cancelled, but I am disappointed with the contact we have had in the last month.
I miss her, obviously, but I am also really struggling, both mentally and physically. My lack of aim and purpose, whilst being stuck at home, has led to an almost inevitable downward spiral.
That would be the brutally honest version, however I think that is too honest. If we do speak, I don't want it to happen because she feels sorry for me. That will not help our friendship going forwards, as my anxieties will constantly remind me of this fact.
There is part of me that doesn't want to reply, as I am not in a place where I particularly want to be honest.
The prospect of uni moving online next year doesn't help, if I am not going to see her for the next 18 months then what is the point in trying? Especially when the last month has been so unfulfilling.
I miss her, obviously, but I am also really struggling, both mentally and physically. My lack of aim and purpose, whilst being stuck at home, has led to an almost inevitable downward spiral.
That would be the brutally honest version, however I think that is too honest. If we do speak, I don't want it to happen because she feels sorry for me. That will not help our friendship going forwards, as my anxieties will constantly remind me of this fact.
There is part of me that doesn't want to reply, as I am not in a place where I particularly want to be honest.
The prospect of uni moving online next year doesn't help, if I am not going to see her for the next 18 months then what is the point in trying? Especially when the last month has been so unfulfilling.
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