My thoughts naturally turn to my circumstances and those who are close to me. Does my CFS and asthma put me in a high-risk group? How socially isolated should I make myself? How at risk is my Mum with her respiratory issues?
My Uni has been closed and I have returned home. If you discount the Food Bank that I volunteer at there really isn’t much social life to isolate myself from here, but that doesn’t really help.
Mentally I am feeling quite low and I anticipate having little contact with friends from uni, not expecting to see them until October.
I will really miss my closest friend and the timing sucks as things were going amazingly well with her, we met up for lunch the last two days we were both at uni, before I went to my sister’s. We had plans to see each other at least four of the next six days, and one of the last things she said to me was that not seeing me for a week would be ages. My heart leapt at that moment, but that hope feels to have faded.
We have been in touch today when and I dropped a hint that I would like to Facetime, but gauging from the response and previous history, I just don’t see that happening, and I don’t want to push it. I guess that my insecurities, particularly when it comes to close friends, it always means my thoughts will instinctively turn to the worse case scenario in situations like these.
Now I have got coursework to do, which feels pointless and I am completely lacking in motivation. I am glad to be home at this time but wish I could see my friends.
I have found following the recent developments engrossing, it is quite amazing how our institutions and way of life can be brought to a halt in such a sudden way.
While this is supposed to be the last decade when we can save our planet, is the coronavirus somehow going to precipitate the start of this recovery? I certainly don’t hope that people die, but flights being grounded is surely a good thing for our planet and can show that it can be done.
I personally haven’t got a clue how to process what is going on, there is confusion about how far to keep my social distance from people. I don’t have a clue how the virus will impact my health, as it seems almost inevitable that I will get infected at some point.