The last week has been completely consumed by horrible, stressful thoughts about Jenna.
The first time that I met her was a non event, she was just part of a group that I hung out with.
The loss of my two Erasmus friends at the end of last term, led me to look for other people who were potential friends, and Jenna was number one on the list.
So I made an effort to spend time with her and get to know her better. I thought things were going well, her friendship even led to an energy boost, which doesn't happen easily.
Then when suggesting meeting up for lunch, she defensively displayed a clear uncomfortableness with this prospect, almost as if the offer was insulting.
In the last week I have gone back and forth between deciding whether to freeze her out, or try to put this behind me and be friends.
The confused nature of why this has happened, hasn't been helped by the contrary nature of her avoiding the library recently, where we meet occasionally, compared to how well we have got on at recent nights out.
Now, I am so stressed about this, very hurt and dreading what is to come. I don't know how to escape this thought process, at the moment.
The first time that I met her was a non event, she was just part of a group that I hung out with.
The loss of my two Erasmus friends at the end of last term, led me to look for other people who were potential friends, and Jenna was number one on the list.
So I made an effort to spend time with her and get to know her better. I thought things were going well, her friendship even led to an energy boost, which doesn't happen easily.
Then when suggesting meeting up for lunch, she defensively displayed a clear uncomfortableness with this prospect, almost as if the offer was insulting.
In the last week I have gone back and forth between deciding whether to freeze her out, or try to put this behind me and be friends.
The confused nature of why this has happened, hasn't been helped by the contrary nature of her avoiding the library recently, where we meet occasionally, compared to how well we have got on at recent nights out.
Now, I am so stressed about this, very hurt and dreading what is to come. I don't know how to escape this thought process, at the moment.
