For the past few days I have been in another "remission".
Which I am grateful for indeed. Things feel pretty normal again. I can relate to things with my (more or less) complete attention. Symptoms haven't been there. Nor has there been any peculiar extreme exhaustion. I have felt naturally tired at the end of the day -but that's okay -that's different. I am back up to about 80% or even more of my normal function.
Now, far be it from me to look a gift horse in the mouth or be cynical about it....but....
I can't trace why. I keep a detailed small journal of progress, and nothing I do has changed. I eat the same, sleep the same, am not on any exclusion diet, haven't taken extra supplements, or pro-biotics, my stress levels are the same (nothing I could remotely call stress.) I haven't rested particularly or even given up alcohol and caffeine totally.
Basically I am doing exactly the same things as when I am not too good. By the way it's not as a result of bed rest or even more profound rest while going through a relapse. Because my relapses are just unpleasant symptoms and dreadful tiredness. I never was bed-bound or house-bound. Except at the very beginning, and for the most part I have just kept ticking over the same come rain or shine. I have been physically able to (unlike so many others.) So I have kept to the same steady routine whether feeling not too well, or feeling better.
So this has once again, happened quite randomly. There are no clues.
I haven't pushed myself while feeling this remission starting. Though I have been for short walks which I was doing anyway. I am the sort of person who doesn't like to be stuck inside if it is even possible to get out in the countryside.
But I haven't thrown myself about in any way.
Of course...I know that as randomly as a remission comes -it randomly goes away again. Or at least that has been the pattern for 6 months.
But what I cannot understand is ....WHY? What has triggered this, and what will undoubtedly trigger a regression in time? It might be days like this, or it might be weeks. I might be ill again at any time.
I cannot for the life of me trace any triggers. And believe me I have searched for clues.
It seems this illness just does what it wants with me, when it wants, on a whim and a fancy.
Now I am not what I'd call a control freak about things, but it can be hard to handle the utter loss of control about this situation.
Maybe I'm over-thinking. Maybe I just need to be jolly well grateful and leave it at that....
Which I am grateful for indeed. Things feel pretty normal again. I can relate to things with my (more or less) complete attention. Symptoms haven't been there. Nor has there been any peculiar extreme exhaustion. I have felt naturally tired at the end of the day -but that's okay -that's different. I am back up to about 80% or even more of my normal function.
Now, far be it from me to look a gift horse in the mouth or be cynical about it....but....
I can't trace why. I keep a detailed small journal of progress, and nothing I do has changed. I eat the same, sleep the same, am not on any exclusion diet, haven't taken extra supplements, or pro-biotics, my stress levels are the same (nothing I could remotely call stress.) I haven't rested particularly or even given up alcohol and caffeine totally.
Basically I am doing exactly the same things as when I am not too good. By the way it's not as a result of bed rest or even more profound rest while going through a relapse. Because my relapses are just unpleasant symptoms and dreadful tiredness. I never was bed-bound or house-bound. Except at the very beginning, and for the most part I have just kept ticking over the same come rain or shine. I have been physically able to (unlike so many others.) So I have kept to the same steady routine whether feeling not too well, or feeling better.
So this has once again, happened quite randomly. There are no clues.
I haven't pushed myself while feeling this remission starting. Though I have been for short walks which I was doing anyway. I am the sort of person who doesn't like to be stuck inside if it is even possible to get out in the countryside.
But I haven't thrown myself about in any way.
Of course...I know that as randomly as a remission comes -it randomly goes away again. Or at least that has been the pattern for 6 months.
But what I cannot understand is ....WHY? What has triggered this, and what will undoubtedly trigger a regression in time? It might be days like this, or it might be weeks. I might be ill again at any time.
I cannot for the life of me trace any triggers. And believe me I have searched for clues.
It seems this illness just does what it wants with me, when it wants, on a whim and a fancy.
Now I am not what I'd call a control freak about things, but it can be hard to handle the utter loss of control about this situation.
Maybe I'm over-thinking. Maybe I just need to be jolly well grateful and leave it at that....