Yesterday i heard this radio show from the BBC about Internet addiction. I was worrying that I, too, may have a tendency toward internet addiction. I have family members - in good health - who wake up and go online....and I think could be online for 8, 12 hours a day. I believe one is a true addict. So, this radio show hit close to home...and I was worrying. "Could this be me?" I wondered.
But, then, I realized that right now it just doesn't matter.
That's when I deleted my "worry-post".
I mean, I would really rather be doing different things: playing my guitar, singing, going to music therapy, doing art work, playing piano, making mobiles, calling friends on the phone...heck...even working. Or, like a last (failed) attempt -- volunteering.
It has been an unusually long, harsh, cold (it was in the teens Fahrenheit last night) winter where I live. Normally, in warmer weather, I get out in my wheel chair, or if feeling well enough, short walks...and just be outside. Watch people. Watch birds. Watch a tree. Watch the sky. I no longer tolerate cold. Anything under 50-60 Fahrenheit can begin mild hypothermia in me...I have to wear warm clothing until 67+Fahrenheit.
So, if I need to break my frustration (icy, long winter), my loneliness, my despair, my fear...if I need to do this - for now - by being online ad-nauseum... so be it. If I need rehab for my time online, I'll go.
Hopefully that rehab will be somewhere warmer, where I can at least people-watch.
Nico
PS: I got out yesterday people... yes, I got out! And, I am looking forward to getting out some more. (it's a little loud, lower volume)
But, then, I realized that right now it just doesn't matter.
That's when I deleted my "worry-post".
I mean, I would really rather be doing different things: playing my guitar, singing, going to music therapy, doing art work, playing piano, making mobiles, calling friends on the phone...heck...even working. Or, like a last (failed) attempt -- volunteering.
It has been an unusually long, harsh, cold (it was in the teens Fahrenheit last night) winter where I live. Normally, in warmer weather, I get out in my wheel chair, or if feeling well enough, short walks...and just be outside. Watch people. Watch birds. Watch a tree. Watch the sky. I no longer tolerate cold. Anything under 50-60 Fahrenheit can begin mild hypothermia in me...I have to wear warm clothing until 67+Fahrenheit.
So, if I need to break my frustration (icy, long winter), my loneliness, my despair, my fear...if I need to do this - for now - by being online ad-nauseum... so be it. If I need rehab for my time online, I'll go.
Hopefully that rehab will be somewhere warmer, where I can at least people-watch.
Nico
PS: I got out yesterday people... yes, I got out! And, I am looking forward to getting out some more. (it's a little loud, lower volume)