Last night the police were pounding at my door at 3.00am, apparently I was screaming so loudly in my sleep that my neighbours who dont even live close, all thought I was being attacked so rang them.
I thou when I remember my dreams they are very bad (I keep dreaming about the bad things Ive experienced or that Im in fires or drowning), its got to the point where I dont remember them no more and block the memory out, so I wasnt even aware I'd been having a nightmare and disturbed all my neighbours.
My insomina has been heaps bad with me only getting 3 hrs sleep the night before as I couldnt go to sleep till day break and then had to get up for medical tests, then with the police waking me up last night there went my sleep from 3.00am onwards. Im so sleep deprieved.
I actually think I have PTSD so I guess that screaming so bad that police are called is just another symptom of my suffering.. but my doctors dont think its possible to have PTSD with CFS/ME, they have no idea how traumatic things have been for me. I also worry if I get as sick as I was in the past that I'd die, as my children dont live home no more to help me and I live alone here. In the past, I was basically left to die by my doctors.
My doctor is away right now, which is great as Ive booked an appointment in with his fill in doctor who I may be able to get the melatonin I need from, fingers crossed that he will say yes when I see him Monday. (my current doctor wont do scripts for it and my specialist who may is a couple of hrs travel and Im unable to get there). I so need that melatonin so I can start having some decent sleep again.
I thou when I remember my dreams they are very bad (I keep dreaming about the bad things Ive experienced or that Im in fires or drowning), its got to the point where I dont remember them no more and block the memory out, so I wasnt even aware I'd been having a nightmare and disturbed all my neighbours.
My insomina has been heaps bad with me only getting 3 hrs sleep the night before as I couldnt go to sleep till day break and then had to get up for medical tests, then with the police waking me up last night there went my sleep from 3.00am onwards. Im so sleep deprieved.
I actually think I have PTSD so I guess that screaming so bad that police are called is just another symptom of my suffering.. but my doctors dont think its possible to have PTSD with CFS/ME, they have no idea how traumatic things have been for me. I also worry if I get as sick as I was in the past that I'd die, as my children dont live home no more to help me and I live alone here. In the past, I was basically left to die by my doctors.
My doctor is away right now, which is great as Ive booked an appointment in with his fill in doctor who I may be able to get the melatonin I need from, fingers crossed that he will say yes when I see him Monday. (my current doctor wont do scripts for it and my specialist who may is a couple of hrs travel and Im unable to get there). I so need that melatonin so I can start having some decent sleep again.