Sometimes I think I'm okay, I'm going to make it, this isn't so bad, & sometimes I think, I'm only trying not to die every day, & this might be the best it will ever be. It is hard to be the one on the list that no one knows what to do with, even the professionals & the experts. This is one of those days that I can't shake. Even at about a 5 with a B-12 shot, I quickly dwindled to a 3.
Crash of epic proportions now, so please forgive the brain fog. I am writing this after seeing another "expert," my dentist. I've felt like I was coming down with the flu (post nasal drip, feverish, weak), along with a swollen gum. I asked him what my crown was made out of, & he got super defensive, asked why I wanted to know, & then if I had an allergy to metals. I told him I had an M.E. diagnosis from the Mayo Clinic, & he acted as though he didn't hear me (typical). He pulled some kelp out of my gums (I knew this had been the culprit), & said I'd be OK (only I have kelp-eating-induced injuries). My fear is bacterial infection. I know that with MCS, we under-respond to viruses & cancer, stuck in T-2 mode, & over-respond to bacteria. Any Phoenox Rising Readers, feel free to chime in. My real question for a day that has ended on a 1.5 is WTFWJD? I'm angry, I'm isolated, I'm scared, I'm trying, I'm out of ideas, I'm afraid of being wrong about whatever I try to do to make myself better. This afternoon my kids have had to watch TV, & on top of it all, that makes me feel horrible.
Crash of epic proportions now, so please forgive the brain fog. I am writing this after seeing another "expert," my dentist. I've felt like I was coming down with the flu (post nasal drip, feverish, weak), along with a swollen gum. I asked him what my crown was made out of, & he got super defensive, asked why I wanted to know, & then if I had an allergy to metals. I told him I had an M.E. diagnosis from the Mayo Clinic, & he acted as though he didn't hear me (typical). He pulled some kelp out of my gums (I knew this had been the culprit), & said I'd be OK (only I have kelp-eating-induced injuries). My fear is bacterial infection. I know that with MCS, we under-respond to viruses & cancer, stuck in T-2 mode, & over-respond to bacteria. Any Phoenox Rising Readers, feel free to chime in. My real question for a day that has ended on a 1.5 is WTFWJD? I'm angry, I'm isolated, I'm scared, I'm trying, I'm out of ideas, I'm afraid of being wrong about whatever I try to do to make myself better. This afternoon my kids have had to watch TV, & on top of it all, that makes me feel horrible.