You can maybe relate. Or maybe not.
Over the past 4 years, most people have fallen out of my life.
Its truly like i went missing in so many ways.
The last time i took my son to boyscouts...gone.
Never seeing those parents i was friends with again.
My daughters mommy and toddler library class? gone.
Never seeing those moms and their children again that i
spent so much time with.
My aunts, my uncles, my cousins, my siblings...
most of my friends.
Like 5 people have died around me since i've been in here.
I cannot make it to any of these things.
Will i ever see my Aunt Maria again? I love her so much. I miss her.
My cousin and her two children i've never even met.
Its all a strange feeling. Like, i am here. I exist.
But the world went on without me.
They've mostly forgotten me...
because i am a memory that is much too painful for them to have to keep reliving.
So, the human mind, distracts and moves on to get away from super painful things.
I see my children, occasionally my parents (very occasional)
and 2 friends/caretakers sporadically.
Then, the man i live with of course too.
So, sometimes i play this song...in my head...and think about what it
would be like to reunite with my old world....and with my new world.
What it would be like to be together with humans again.
So yeah...this song is my ode..
to being in the world again.
Stranger things have happened, right?
Over the past 4 years, most people have fallen out of my life.
Its truly like i went missing in so many ways.
The last time i took my son to boyscouts...gone.
Never seeing those parents i was friends with again.
My daughters mommy and toddler library class? gone.
Never seeing those moms and their children again that i
spent so much time with.
My aunts, my uncles, my cousins, my siblings...
most of my friends.
Like 5 people have died around me since i've been in here.
I cannot make it to any of these things.
Will i ever see my Aunt Maria again? I love her so much. I miss her.
My cousin and her two children i've never even met.
Its all a strange feeling. Like, i am here. I exist.
But the world went on without me.
They've mostly forgotten me...
because i am a memory that is much too painful for them to have to keep reliving.
So, the human mind, distracts and moves on to get away from super painful things.
I see my children, occasionally my parents (very occasional)
and 2 friends/caretakers sporadically.
Then, the man i live with of course too.
So, sometimes i play this song...in my head...and think about what it
would be like to reunite with my old world....and with my new world.
What it would be like to be together with humans again.
So yeah...this song is my ode..
to being in the world again.
Stranger things have happened, right?
