Today didn't actually start off well as I woke up from a migraine like nightmare but I also the night before did eat some ice cream that also probably had some D3 added to it when I was out and even tiny amounts tend to do strange things like that to me on top of fact I ate lot of junk anyways. This morning around 9 AM I decided to try taking an extra 1000 mcg of methyl-b12 again on top of the 2000 mcg I had this morning and it once again picked me up enough to not feel like I was dying so I guess for now I'll just keep it at 3000 mcg because I think I'm stablizing well enough at that dose. The rest of the day I didn't do too much until a little bit later in the afternoon when I was doing some research and came across an ME/CFS theory on the RCCX genetic module and CYP21A2 which I decided to look up in combination with vitamin D and went down quite a rabbit hole. I'm not going to get into that in this post here since I'd be rambling forever on it but I will update my "Different D3, Different Reactions" topic with that wall of text at some point.
As the evening goes on here I feel alright in comparison to how I've been doing but I have head pressure and a sort of bad mood to go with it souring my evening a bit here. Just trying to prepare myself for the hard week ahead but with the methyl-b12 increase I should be able to make it. I'm definitely quitting my second job as I simply can't handle it properly. Pushing myself will only hurt me more with no benefit to anything but my wallet. I plan on starting a new show tonight and trying to get into the swing of enjoying things like that at night again like I have somewhat recently before but my health got in the way. Also still waiting on the calcifediol to ship though I'm surprised as it is the weekend and most places don't ship on weekends. This coming week should be quite the roller coaster though, never a dull week when you're constantly fighting for your own health and never giving up on trying new things. Sometimes you just gotta embrace the often painful madness of it all because what else is there to do? I'm not getting dragged under without a fight. I'm miserable and weak often but it's gonna take a lot more from life to break this backbone. I didn't claw my way out severe over the course of a year just to let myself down now.
As the evening goes on here I feel alright in comparison to how I've been doing but I have head pressure and a sort of bad mood to go with it souring my evening a bit here. Just trying to prepare myself for the hard week ahead but with the methyl-b12 increase I should be able to make it. I'm definitely quitting my second job as I simply can't handle it properly. Pushing myself will only hurt me more with no benefit to anything but my wallet. I plan on starting a new show tonight and trying to get into the swing of enjoying things like that at night again like I have somewhat recently before but my health got in the way. Also still waiting on the calcifediol to ship though I'm surprised as it is the weekend and most places don't ship on weekends. This coming week should be quite the roller coaster though, never a dull week when you're constantly fighting for your own health and never giving up on trying new things. Sometimes you just gotta embrace the often painful madness of it all because what else is there to do? I'm not getting dragged under without a fight. I'm miserable and weak often but it's gonna take a lot more from life to break this backbone. I didn't claw my way out severe over the course of a year just to let myself down now.
