Blog entries by carvahlo
My friend has asked me how I am, and I don't know how truthful I should be. We have messaged a little bit since uni got cancelled, but I am disappointed with the contact we have had in the last month.
I miss her, obviously, but I am also really struggling, both mentally and physically. My lack...
As humans we are told that our ability to think makes us special, and humanity is great because we treat each other with respect and protect our most vulnerable, but is this true? Even if this is true, is it enough?
Covid-19 has shown what is regarded as acts of altruism, while countries have...
Social distancing, a pandemic, lockdown in Europe and potentially 8 million Brits requiring hospital treatment, just how bad is this going to get. The world seems to be stopping now and it feels like the end of the world.
My thoughts naturally turn to my circumstances and those who are close to...
The right friendship seems to have a magical effect on my health, all of a sudden my energy levels can soar, my mood improves, I feel lighter and my sleep becomes more efficient. It is so weird how things can change so easily at times and so hard to explain. I don’t fully understand why it quite...
The last week has been completely consumed by horrible, stressful thoughts about Jenna.
The first time that I met her was a non event, she was just part of a group that I hung out with.
The loss of my two Erasmus friends at the end of last term, led me to look for other people who were...
For a brief sunlit moment my energy levels picked up, I know precisely why, my friend Jenna. Things were going so well, I felt incredibly close to her and I loved every moment I spent with her, until I pushed it too far.
A coincidence of a night planned out, that she forgot and a gap in my day...
There is a buzz of chatter, laughter and joy seem all around, but I just feel so isolated, unable to express myself, I just sit there while dark thoughts circle, I hate being shy and I hate being tired all the time. I leave with this empty feeling of despair in my stomach, just wanting to cry...
The room is small and dingy, with a table, TV and some chairs. The walls are white, but you can tell it has been a while since they were painted. I sit for a moment staring through the window into nothingness, the rain lightly falls, but it doesn’t register, my brain is switched off. Suddenly I...
I posted this originally on wordpress last week, but thought I would post it on here as well.
On the verge of tears I feel isolated, with all my insecurities flooding back, overwhelming my every thought, I don’t know how to go on. I was meant to play cards with my friend, but he messaged an...
I posted this originally last week on my wordpress blog, but I thought I would see how it fairs on this website.
My name is Thomas, I am 29 years old and I have just completed my first term at university. The aim of this blog is to provide an insight into the everyday trials and tribulations of...