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I'm suffering badly. I am 20 years old. This is disheartening, but I have been beaten up and traumatized so bad for so long I am used to it.
Would bad reaction to magnesium indicate hypokalemia? I think so. Magnesium induces air hunger. So, I need potassium, huh? When I take potassium, I get twitching and weird pains, slight headache, tingling in feet. Perhaps this is a healing reaction and my body is using the much needed K? Or perhaps the twitching and tingling I am going hyperkalemic due to adrenal insufficiency? Who knows.
Extreme anhedonia. Boredom, always. Dysphoria. Always sighing and rolling my eyes as an instinct. People around me telling me it's my fault and "you just don't want to get better". I cannot get out of bed without amphetamine, and even that barely works. On caffeine and Adderall, I am still sleepy and anhedonic. I was given a faulty body and life.
Still chelating with Cutler. Round 54. Extreme reaction to the chelators. Profound sensory pain and depression. Out of chelators. No money, so have to wait however long to save up, buy them, wait a month for them to arrive.
I never, ever have an appetite. My body is asking me not to feed it. Food is foreign. No one helped me. $5000 in savings gone. Most spent om holistic doctors, the rest spent on addictions to relieve my pain. I had faith in Functional Medicine but that was a complete waste.
I dislike negativity. I'm quite pleasant if you know me. This is me venting. I will not kill myself anytime soon. I only will if I spend more time like this with no indication of improvement or hope. There is nothing in it for me unless I get better. This is not an acceptable life.
I'll keep chelating and experimenting with my 5 drawers full of supplements. My life is on hold. I can barely move myself to take a shower.
Air hunger. Burping. Raw, burning stomach. Burning eyes. Taking all the indicated stuff for these; nothing works.
B12 makes me ANGRY. Well, Freddd really has no explanation for that except "healing". That doesn't convince me. Nothing else gets better, I just feel insanely unbearably agitated. No, doesn't feel like healing to me.
Would bad reaction to magnesium indicate hypokalemia? I think so. Magnesium induces air hunger. So, I need potassium, huh? When I take potassium, I get twitching and weird pains, slight headache, tingling in feet. Perhaps this is a healing reaction and my body is using the much needed K? Or perhaps the twitching and tingling I am going hyperkalemic due to adrenal insufficiency? Who knows.
Extreme anhedonia. Boredom, always. Dysphoria. Always sighing and rolling my eyes as an instinct. People around me telling me it's my fault and "you just don't want to get better". I cannot get out of bed without amphetamine, and even that barely works. On caffeine and Adderall, I am still sleepy and anhedonic. I was given a faulty body and life.
Still chelating with Cutler. Round 54. Extreme reaction to the chelators. Profound sensory pain and depression. Out of chelators. No money, so have to wait however long to save up, buy them, wait a month for them to arrive.
I never, ever have an appetite. My body is asking me not to feed it. Food is foreign. No one helped me. $5000 in savings gone. Most spent om holistic doctors, the rest spent on addictions to relieve my pain. I had faith in Functional Medicine but that was a complete waste.
I dislike negativity. I'm quite pleasant if you know me. This is me venting. I will not kill myself anytime soon. I only will if I spend more time like this with no indication of improvement or hope. There is nothing in it for me unless I get better. This is not an acceptable life.
I'll keep chelating and experimenting with my 5 drawers full of supplements. My life is on hold. I can barely move myself to take a shower.
Air hunger. Burping. Raw, burning stomach. Burning eyes. Taking all the indicated stuff for these; nothing works.
B12 makes me ANGRY. Well, Freddd really has no explanation for that except "healing". That doesn't convince me. Nothing else gets better, I just feel insanely unbearably agitated. No, doesn't feel like healing to me.