I'm sorry to hear that you had a panic attack. Thank heavens they're so infrequent now! I imagine that stress about the holidays could be a contributing factor. But so glad that you were able to wash up in spite of it! If you're exhausted, it's such a luxury to feel clean!
Your living room looks so lovely and cozy! You've decorated it so beautifully! I'm glad that you were able to spend some time there. It's incredible how far you've come in the past year!
By the way, have you seen this thread:
https://forums.phoenixrising.me/thr...-to-as-long-or-as-short-as-you-need-to.78700/? I know that Christmas is less than a day away, but there can still be more ups and downs in that time. This thread is a great place to share them and support others who are having similar struggles!