A treatment that helps me tremendously

[Johannes]

I tried eating sugar several times for this anxiety, which I would also call high mental stress. I found out that it helps only if it causes my body to produce hormones that cause happynes or good feelings. I found better help from other things that produce more of these hormones such as comforting words from my friend, and helping a stranger. I pet hugging would also do the trick. Why? Because when my wife was still with me, these symptoms were a lot less. She didn't need to hug me but just be there for me and close to me, and it helped. The same thing happened to me when my friend moved to live with me on January. But now that I am here in Spain alone, I can't feel the presence, and the symptoms are worse.

I know drinking alcohol did help but I haven't drunk for 11 days, and I won't drink for a long long time.

But the fact still is that if I don't eat protein containing food every 3 to 4 hours, I feel lousy.

 

[Nord Wolf]

My wife passed away last night. 😪 Her heart failed. I miss her so much!

Fucking hell man. Dealing with vision loss, the waiting for new visual aid tech, learning how to navigate and use it, struggling through a prolonged winter, getting sick twice since December… etc, I didn’t even find this news until now. Words can’t express the sympathies. I know you and I are near the same age, and cannot even fathom your loss. I’m sorry your year began that way and I’m not surprised your health as been extra challenging ever since.

Just a stray idea for you… I recently started using this device for vagus nerve health. It has settings for stress, anxiety, burnout, sleep, and pain. I notice using it multiple times a day makes a difference in both insomnia and nervous system burnout. I have a friend who got it last year and uses the burnout setting for grief and claims positive results.

Pulsetto

https://pulsetto.tech

Not any guarantee it would help with anything for you, of course, just a random idea.

I do miss the sun. We have had four major storms in the past 4 weeks. The 4th one is ending tonight. It was yet another blizzard that dropped 2.5 feet (76 cm) of snow and we lost electricity for 20 hours yesterday. A week ago, we had another storm that dropped 27 inches (69 cm) of snow. The week before that we got hit with 18 inches (45 cm). And the week prior to that one, 16 inches (40 cm) of snow fell. I want to sit in the sun and feel the warmth of spring already.

 

[Johannes]

"Fucking hell man. Dealing with vision loss, the waiting for new visual aid tech, learning how to navigate and use it, struggling through a prolonged winter, getting sick twice since December… etc, I didn’t even find this news until now."

Sorry to hear about your struggles @Nord Wolf !

"Words can’t express the sympathies. I know you and I are near the same age, and cannot even fathom your loss. I’m sorry your year began that way and I’m not surprised your health as been extra challenging ever since."

Thank you! It has been tough. But only at the end of last week I got rid of my stress and anxiety. My depression is almost gone. I feel it coming back every now and then. The sun has finally done its job 🙂 I still have some memory problems and problems with my muscle recovery after walking more than 3km per day. And I don't exactly feel pleasure normally, from food, or other. But I do feel happyness every now and then. I am still a bit tired.

I have done most of my greaving. So soon, some might say? I still miss my wife a lot but as my positive feelings happen at the same time, it is hard to be sad. And my cognitive functions are not exactly healed yet.

I had a good marriage. All good memories. Nothing to regret. We loved each others dearly. And she was the best for me. We were a match in every way. When I go back home, I will take her ashes to a forrest, where she wanted to have her final resting place, by the sea.

"Just a stray idea for you… I recently started using this device for vagus nerve health. It has settings for stress, anxiety, burnout, sleep, and pain. I notice using it multiple times a day makes a difference in both insomnia and nervous system burnout. I have a friend who got it last year and uses the burnout setting for grief and claims positive results."

Thanks for a tip. I tried similar piece of equipment and it didn't work for me.

"I do miss the sun. We have had four major storms in the past 4 weeks. The 4th one is ending tonight. It was yet another blizzard that dropped 2.5 feet (76 cm) of snow and we lost electricity for 20 hours yesterday. A week ago, we had another storm that dropped 27 inches (69 cm) of snow. The week before that we got hit with 18 inches (45 cm). And the week prior to that one, 16 inches (40 cm) of snow fell. I want to sit in the sun and feel the warmth of spring already."

wow! So much snow! In Finland, where I live, it is some 5 to 6 degrees Celsius day time. The snow is gone. But the trees are still not green.

Here is a picture taken from my terrace at Spain.

 

[Johannes]

Something happened the 10th of Aprill, when my fried and her daughter arrived. I was affraid that I would be so very tired after spending time with them daily and sightseeing the country but I am only slightly tired after walking 6 to 9 kilometers per day and driving car daily for couple of hours for a week. My bowel isn't iflammated after eating food in restaurants. I can't explain why I am feeling as well as I normally feel at my best on August. My ques is that my loving friends have positive effects on me and my psychological stress and my being so much sunbathing during the last year or so. Also the psychological stress that I had concerning my wife's sickness is gone. I had it for four years. And some of the stress caused by my wifes death is gone.

I can't explain this otherwise. I feel healthier than ever since 2011 I got sick.

 

[Johannes]

Back at home. It seems that some 6 to 9 kilometers day was too much but I think I can easily walk some 3 to 4 km a day and do cooking and shopping. I am recovering quite fast from the last two weeks. I am now at my best summer condition and summer in Finland is about to start.