Like most people on this board i have been told by some docs the reason for my fatigue is simply that i have depression. But like most other people here from the beginning i felt there is a different reason. but since my disease progressed and i have become more sad about this i have also become a bit unsure what now is the chicken and what the egg. i just want to be well again, regardless of what it is. and to be honest there are some symptoms that really sound like a typical depression and some others are quite typical for not having one. i also read of some people like ciara maclaverty who got well from severe ME with psychological stuff like MT. so im confused. psychiatrists, as you might know, unfortunately are no help in finding out cos for them everybody with fatigue has depression, somatoform disorder or its just psychosomatic. but when i look at the symptoms of cfs and depression its hard to make a difference cos having cfs obviously leads to many classical symptoms of depression. what makes me think i dont have depression: - the first half year of my cfs i wasnt sad, only confident i would get better - antidepressant st johns wort made me worse (now also all other drugs) - i have neurologic symptoms like tingling, pain, twitching and myoclonus - my sex drive and appetite are not reduced - sometimes i feel extremely worse after too much walking - vacation (with no activity) makes me feel better what makes me think i could have depression: - i often wake up early (sometimes also in the middle of the night) - i sometimes feel better in the evening - i cry a lot (sad about my disease and the lack of perpective) - sometimes when i slept only very little at night I felt significantly better after afterwards - i often blame myself for health/medical decisions that made me worse and think a lot about the past - i dont want to meet friends anymore (cos i am so ashamed of being so sick) - even small tasks require a lot of effort - i dont have this flu-feeling anymore - i enjoy sunlight what do you think?