I knew it was going to happen. For weeks, I had planned all the things I needed to do before my guests would arrive. I was pretty good at it, making sure i had plenty of rest periods between each activity. However, the last days were pretty hectic (I lost control - too many things to do, not enough time) and then, they showed up (I was already too exhausted). They stayed a day and a half (40 hours) but were only here for meals and evenings (so i spent a total of 15 hours with them). During the day, they left for an appointment and I collapsed for 4 hours while they were gone. I thought I would never get back up on my feet. Last night, my flu symptoms were all back and this morning it felt like I had been hit by a truck. Fortunately, they left at 8 this morning and I was able to spend the whole day in bed. I have this dreadful feeling that I am falling into a relapse. I feel poisoned, like I have been drugged, and I have a hangover. Tonight, my symptoms are : Extreme nausea, severe headache, earache, burning throat with a husky voice, I have many cankers in my mouth, my upper lip is red and chapped (I probably had a fever), three of my fingers (right hand) have cracks, flushed cheeks and ears, electric sensation in the back of my neck, difficulty breathing, burning in my spine and my legs, red burning feet (can't walk) both breasts are inflamed and burning, blurred vision, abdominal discomfort, pain all over, too weak to do anything, cognitive problems. Just before falling into a relapse, do you feel it coming? When you do, do you feel as scared as I do? I am afraid that I will not get back to where I was before getting sick. I am not too keen on spending the next few days (few weeks?) in bed. Are there ways to prepare for this ? Mentally and physically? Are there things I can do now to avoid a major crash? Is it normal to be afraid? Each time, it scares the s*** out of me. I know what to expect and I don't want it to happen.