Hi all, I have had chronic fatigue over 4 years now going on 5 with little or no real help other than a IND band 39 and 41 on a lyme test. However i am reaching a breaking point where i am extremely angry for no real reason, constantly negative thoughts(prior to CFS i was a positive person), constantly wanting to fight etc. Lyme doctor has thoroughly annoyed me saying i must travel 4 hours each way to see them and they will not prescribe me the medication unless i travel to see them, cant afford it. I think i am still trying to heal leaky gut but to be honest i dont think its healing. This is all on top of the symptoms i already have, now i am worried since anytime i have anxiety i am getting a sharp stabbing pain in my head, as you can imagine it is scary. I sit here while my life just deteriorates. I am lost and sick of not being given any help from doctors and have decided i will try for support allowance which i tried for in the past saying it was just anxiety, i believed them out of naivety and simply got worse. But i know this is biological and not psychological. Psychological problems are secondary. The only thing i have done is started taking colloidal silver and doing a cure for Lyme's disease which is Stephen buhner's protocol. I am not seeing any real change, the only change i am seeing is worse crepitus and more fatigue as time passes. All the money i have spent on stuff is crazy. So now i come here hoping someone may be able to give me some direction, first i want to try for disability support again but expect to be rejected again. Second i really want to know if its worth trying some of these mitochondrial repair products such as N-Factor or ATP type stuff. Either that or attempting an approach of feeding myself with positive bacteria since i am clueless. I am at my ends and thinking of giving up my life at this point. I feel i have been ripped off by doctors over and over again. If you have any direction of what i should try next please do, i dont know whether to try mito type products or focus on feeding myself positive bacteria, but whatever i do perhaps i will ruin my body further. Thank you for listening, please excuse any anger that comes through in my post, i am in a very low place.