What were your ME symptoms like?
Pretty classic ME/CFS symptoms that satisfy the Canadian consensus criteria. I have brain fog (and all that entails), fatigue, unrefreshing sleep, sleep cycle inversion (awake at night, asleep in the day), the need to sleep 10 hours each day otherwise I can't function mentally, POTS, sound sensitivity, emotional flattening, emotional sensitivity to social discord or stressful situations, irritability, chronic sore throat, recurrent occasional headaches swollen lymph nodes, occasional chest pains, anxiety, depression, crimson crescents, dry mouth, blurred vision, irritable bowel, cold hands and feet.
Although what's unusual is that I don't seem to suffer from physical exercise induced PEM, although I do get a lot of mental exertion PEM, especially from the excitement and energy used up when socializing with people. I also developed some very nasty mental symptoms from my virus, which in many ways are worse than the ME/CFS.
How has your cognition and personality changed?
It's was a strange thing, but my brain infection seemed to instantly sever the link between my intellectual, reasoning brain and my emotional brain. Usually human beings respond both intellectually and emotionally to situations, and there is constant interplay and give-and-take between the emotional and reasoning mind. But the brain infection seemed to cut connection between the two; I literally felt this happen as the virus infected my brain. I am guessing the virus must have infected a part of the brain tasked with emotional processing.
In a strange way, it initially felt liberating, as my reasoning mind suddenly became free of the constraints and pressures placed on it by the emotional mind. I was not aware of these constraints and pressures until they were suddenly severed away! But of course it is not good to have a mind that is unconnected from its emotions.
In addition, I lost faculties in the areas of facial recognition, recognition of facial emotions in others, and in my empathetic skills. I regained the facial recognition and the recognition of facial emotions after some time, but sadly the empathetic skills remain permanently diminished.
On the cognitive side, the brain infection caused severe ADHD/ADD symptoms, such that for years I was barely able to read anything. Even a short 5 sentence email was very difficult for me to read. My whole brain was just scrambled. This is separate issue to brain fog. That ADHD/ADD slowly improved though, in the 12 years since my brain infection.
And do you think if you got the right antiviral or immunemodulator your neurological symptoms might improve?
I read that chronic brain inflammation impedes brain repair after any brain injury (such as traumatic brain injury), which is unfortunate because usually brain injury triggers neuroinflammation. So it is possible that because I descended into ME/CFS after my brain infection, the chronic neuroinflammation of ME/CFS may have hampered my brain's attempts to heal itself.
A while ago I came across
an account of very high dose fish oils (18 grams of DHA and EPA a day) helping to repair non-healing traumatic brain injuries, as these high doses have potent anti-inflammatory effects in the brain, as well as of course providing the essential fatty acid substrates needed by the brain.
So a few years ago I decided to try this myself (though at a slightly lower dose), but I noticed no benefits. However, more recently I read about pure EPA fish oil with little or no DHA (such as
VegEPA), and tried this out at doses of around 4500 mg of EPA daily. After a few months, I noticed some improvements in my ADHD, which might be an indication of some brain healing; or it might just be because VegEPA has been shown to improve ADHD in clinical trials.