Hey Victoria and all of you wonderful souls out there! I've looked up this and it's available in my country for about the same price so I'm geting it. THANK you for this advice! I can't stand feeling like this every god damn minute of every god damn day anymore.. I just cry and have anxiety and then I'm on Zoloft to.. One can't live like this, it's unbarable. If there were only anyone here, but I don't have a soul. GG: I can't afford to move either so that's not an option right now, and I have lived in this town all of my life so what little safety i have, I have here, but thanks for trying, I really appretiate it. Icollin64: Sounds like you have the same fear as me! I to, am so scared of the loneliness. Always being alone and robbed of any social contacts. One cant live like that: isolated and alone always.. i wish I was one of those who liked the loneliness and living that way but I just can't, I'm a social person inside and this is just killing me. I'm starting a programme in january for those with mental illness where they mostly do small things, like a workshop for the mentally ill, since ME 's still considered to be a mental ilness in this country and we're counted in amongst them, but.. It feels like I'm not going to meet anyone that i can talk to there.. Like I'm alone in this yet again. besides one has to be there at least twice a week to not lose the spot and I don't know if I can do that. Oh an, this is just a downward spiral that never ends.. I took valium today to get through the day. Sick, one shouldn't have to do that.