I had the psychologist ring me again tonight to see how Im going (I guess she wanted to make sure I hadnt killed myself after this latest news that I cant have counselling throu her under medicare). She told me she'd rang the mental services people to try to enquire what she should do about me as she's concerned, she wanted to know if I'd eatten anything today. I have actually, I had some nuts and some milk and I ate once yesterday, an actual decent meal (I think that may of been the first in a week). Anyway, unfortunately the mental health guy rang me wanting to talk to me, but Ive told him to get lost (Im not about to talk to anyone who doesnt understand my situation and arent about to make myself ill going to great efforts trying to get someone to understand!!!!! I cant bear to strike another person who thinks we are just TIRED!). So the best I can do right now is get angry and tell them to go away. In the past when I was suicidal and stressed (back when my doctor at that time slept with my boyfriend!! the doctor I'd moved in with cause she said she'd help me but just used my illness to get to him!), , the mental health people actually abandoned me and accused me of putting it on for attention after giving me the borderline personality disorder label, so that too makes me want to not have ANYTHING to do with them. That HURT!! I will not make myself vulerable to them again, so I will not talk to them. The only ones I'd be willing to talk too is those who understand ME/CFS and arent goin to say crap to me or wrongly judge. Ive now got a ton of anxiety going on as I expect they will now feel obliged to come to my door. Im going to refuse to answer it so I guess they will have to knock it down. I wish I could remember where I put the padlock for my gates.