@tania I feel so sorry about all of the stress you are under. I think though that the way that you are trying to sort it out will not work and just give you more stress because the main problem is not being addressed. If you were given a diagnosis of a personality disorder some time in the past, it will stick, whether it is written anywhere or not, it will be recorded on your medical history. If you try to see it, you will not be able to as it is classed as 'dangerous' or unsuitable for some patients to know they have the borderline diagnosis. They can legally withold it. It is not classed as 'mental illness' as such as mental illness is treatable and personality disorder is classed as untreatable. Mental health workers really detest dealing with people with PD's as they are known to not do anything at all to help themselves and they usually have a bad attitude towards the workers. I think that it explains why you have such a struggle getting enough help. I think that the best thing to do is for you to get in touch with a borderline support group and tell them you think you have got a misdiagnosis and how do you go about challenging it. Unless you can get it changed, things will not change much and you will not get any openness from your support workers.